dark_fenix

Okay, listen up... I'm a guy who has been through a similar situation(she was outgoing and I was kinda shy). I liked this girl a whole lot, at one point she meant the world for me. You didn't admit anything yet to each other but we felt it with our words, the eye contacts and just a feeling of care. Then she played around with games, showing interest one day and ignoring me on others, so I gave up on her. But then she indirectly admited to me that she loved me , when I finally heard these words I've been waiting to hear for such a long time, I didn't know if it was true. I felt happy yet very unsecure about myself, this girl was special to me but I felt she deserved the best in return. I didn't know If I could have given her that, I was scared to disapoint her for loving me. Then I thought It will never work out, but how wrong that was to think because I didn't really even give it a try. So in reply to that e-mail I just asked her how her summer was going on, not really admitting my feelings event though they were there. I got the feeling she was kinda hurt and it bothered me. So till next time i'm gonna be working on myself to be able to give her what she deserves and if it doesn't work out at least I tried... So maybe this guy was scared to be rejected and disapoint a special girl like you so he backed out. So give it one last try and if he doesn't capitalize on the chance go look elsewhere, you will know u tried.... Hope that helped you, good luck!

Hold on and be strong, here are tw peoms that might help u, so please read them: suicide and friends "This is the way some of us think. you think the world would be better if you just didn't exist. If you left no one would notice. We all think this is true, but think of all your friends. Think of all the people you have talked to, they remember you. they do think of you even if you don't think they do They care. some people don't know how to say it some don't know how to help, and they leave you. Your friends know you, Your family knows you. No one knows what goes through your head. People in this world do care You just have to think Who will miss you." ------------------------------------------------------ Suicide Who weeps for those who chose to weep no more? Suicide steals Suicide steals Who hears the cries when there are no more tries left Who will understand? gone to soon to a distant land Who will understand? Suicide steals Suicide steals Gone to soon the loss of one diminshes us all Gone to soon Pain calls to some to quit life beckons most to carry on Agony opens up and some fall into that pit life beckons most to to mourn and meet each new dawn Suicide steals Suicide steals To live or to die choice who really knows why choice sees some live and others die Who weeps for those who chose to weep no more? We do.

Umm, thanx for that reply. It really makes sense and your right, I don't have anything to loose , only to gain. If I don't do anything about it, then I might be older and look back at this situation and wonder why the hell not didn't I do anything about it, regret is a risk i'm just not willing to take. And If it still doesn't work out, then at least I'll have known that I did my part for somthing that really mattered to me, and I wouldn't need to regret anything and finally able to move on using this experience as somthing I could learn from. And your right about this: "there is no faith but what you make of it", that is true in so many ways. As I was writting this thing down, the girl I liked logged on msn and we started chatting about life, it felt good. So thanx again. If anybody has other suggestions to make a relationship start abd develop please post it up here.

Hey, everybody, I got this real big problem and I don't know what to do... There is this girl I liked since sec 1(next year i'll be in sec 5), we got along nicely we would joke, laugh and talk together for a long time even during class. When she was sad I always made her feel better and when I was down she would cheer me up.But i didn't really know if she liked me that much... So next year, we didn't talk much, but each time we saw each other we shared this intense eye to eye look, then we turned away. It was driving me crazy... Then I found out that she was going to change school and I thought I wouldn't never get the answer I was looking for. She e-mail me this forwarded quiz which contained a question saying: "did you ever have a crush on me?" I figured i wouldn't be seeing this girl again so I wrote" I did", She wrote back saying "not really" from her part. My heart just crumbled and I said I should get over it and I tried forgetting about her. But next year, she turned out to be in the same school as I, i just couldn't believe it. Those intense eye contacts continued. One day on a school boat cruise I was sitting in the back of the boat alone when she came and sar besides me with this shy look, we talked a while , but that was it. During this time this really pretty girl liked me, but my mind was still on her so I didn't do anything. Next year, in sec 4, I was forced to work in team with her, at first it felt real uncorfortable but then it was going real well, we started building this bond. Sometimes we would get kicked out of class together and we would chat away in the corridors runing around the school. But then she would show interest and the next day she would ignore me, this happened more than once. So in the end I was real hurt and decided to forget her once and for all. I finally felt though I as i could breath easy. Then the school year ended, I didn't even feel like telling her goodbye. Then three weeks later I get on msn and her msn nickname was: "bichy boo: I know I was wrong and that ain't fair, i was playing games with your mind when I knew you cared. but I love..." That's where I am right now...Just don't know what to do, try or leave? People please help me...