The Mad Pagan

It's still day 2, but I am feeling weak. You know, I don't like being treated like I don't exist. Yeah, I know he's hurting, but we haven't spoken at all since the break-up. Every attempt I previously made at communication was ignored, and that's why I decided that I just need to go NC and focus on myself. Still, this was the best relationship I've ever been in. How could it hurt any more?

Day 2 of the challenge, day 9 of no contact whatsoever. It's actually pretty easy for me to maintain NC, because the ex wouldn't respond to anything I sent anyway (as I know from a month of hard experience). Today I haven't thought about 'us' much except in the quiet moments. Those are the worst. I still want our relationship back, and it sometimes feels like I'm slowly dying inside, but things will be what they will be. Fate's hand shouldn't be forced.

This is actually day 8, but for the sake of the challenge I'm starting here. Ready, set, go! Today I was thinking about the ex a lot, but not in a way that caused me lasting pain. It's more of a distant longing. Every day I am stronger.