silence is what exactly im doing.. and clinging on to the comfort that this website brings.... thanks already for the people who designed this thing whatever happens to me whether she comes back or not...
And as I have wrote shadow, my workplace is unfair for me (i think)... she have contacts here... just like a few minutes ago her brother visited me here cause he is working here as well... I knew she would ask her brother to come and see me once in a while to know how am i doing...unlike me I have no idea what is she doing everyday or...even night.....
Anyway, according to her bro she asked him to see me.. her bro even talked about us to her... according to him she did a long pause when he asked her if she still loves me.. however she said... "i don't know"...
I just told her bro i am just giving her the space and time she needs.. but in all honesty i told her bro... I am in deep S***t, lost and confused if she'd ever want us back..coz thats only what I want now...to bring us back together..
But I told him, however, if she still wants me back she will know it by herself... Coz i know this woman... shes the kind who will only listen to herself what she think is good unless one has a credible experience over any matter at hand..
And what I fear the most is her "mind".. If she said what she said.. she will stand by it no matter what.... I just hope that "love" is powerful in her that could still overpower her mind in the end...