was with my Bf for 2 years with a couple of short break ups.
at first i was wearign the trousers and he was like a puppy dog round me rushing up 2 c me .. then due to a break up that i instigated and then realsied how much i loved him when he did a disspearing act one weekend... the roles reversed and since then he was the one wearing the trousers.
i have been the one chasing him for about a year and a few months now. whenever we have an argument, he will walk out and drive home and not talk to me for 24 hours... i text and ring him and do the begging and pleading thing.
he had finished with me a few times and i beg and pester him constantly but have always managed to win him back.
5 day ago (valentines) we had a small argument about the amount of contact we have during the week which got him quite aggitated (he had been pretty stressed with work for about 2 weeks and had told me that everyone seemd to be getting on his nerves so i know i should maybe have left this for another time) any way he told me to leave it and i kept pleading with him to lsiten to me and try and understand me but by this time he had flipped because i had gone on a little bit to long and it resulted in the biggest argument we have had yet.
i was hysterical crying and begging him not 2 go home and standing in front of my front door trying to stop him from leaving .. i was a hysterical mess and woulda done anything to make him stay and not leave things how they were.
eventually after abotu 30 mins of him trying to get out... he got into his car and i stood in front of it still crying and begging him not 2 leave but he drove the car anyway and where he avoided me he crashed into a tree..
now he doesnt want anything to do with me and sais im way to needy and a bit of a pysco for acting the way i did on valentines. its made it worse now coz his mum is on his side tellign him not to come back and see me ever again and he has done well to put up with me for that long (though she doesnt know how great it has been the majority of the time.. she has only seen the bad stuff i guess)
last time we spoke was day after valentines ... he said he didnt want me any more and i have ruined it and to go and see a shrink .. he was quite civil and calm.
but this was all 2 days after him telling me how gorgeous n wonderful i am and how he is so in love with me and wants me 4eva. on the morning of valentines he gave me a card saying "im gonna stand by u 4eva" and he was all over me all morning... and then in a matter of hours .. his whole mind was switched against me becuase of my needy behaviour.
he did say the day after that he was very cut about it all and his heart wsa broken but he couldnt be with me any more after the way i acted and the fact i stood in front of his car and made him crash it
i was such a total fool... i cant believe how needy i acted and how needy i have been for about a year. when i first met him i was happy, confident and never ever needy... and i have changed so much.
its been 5 days since he told me it was over for good.... and i have been very very strong and resisted the temptation to ring or text or email him even though my heart is in pieces.. i cant sleep or eat and its not getting any easier. i am so lonely without his contact and im in unbearable pain.
by the way i have never ever gone this long without contacting him .. so i know by now that he must be wondering what im doing and why the ususal begging him hasnt started
please help advice me how to get him back... i know i have been an utter needy fool and im gonna go 2 councelling and sort myself out.
i jsut want him to see the new me and give me a chance.
HELP
