I recently moved in with my boyfriend of a year and a half. We are expecting our daughter in May. We have a great relationship. He is nine years my senior and very good to me.
The problem is my insane jealousy. We work at the same place but I am out for pregnancy complications. My life went from 85mph to 5mph as soon as I was pulled from work. I am limited in everything I do. Another guy at our work is having a baby as well. His "wife" is due around the same time I am so my boyfriend and the guy talk to each other about their situations. This is fine and I am happy he has someone to talk to.
Last night, he made a comment that she (the guy at work's wife) isn't like me and continued to mock me and make fun of my pregnancy concerns. This hurt me. I feel like he is always comparing me to her. She is older, more established, married etc. He sends his old books over to her but doesn't offer them to me.
So it turned into a huge fight and he told me to leave, which hew never did before. I left for an hour and came back and went to bed. He was already sleeping. Today he is gone at work all day.
I don't know how to make this better. I am truly sorry and embarrassed but I do this all the time. Once or twice weekly. We fight but I am the one saying all the insae things and pulling all this crap out of no where and throwing it at him. I know he doesn't deserve it at all. I don't know what to do to control myself and to be able to tell him something to compromise so that he won't give up on me and our child. I dont think he would but I know a man can only take so much and I am terrible!
Please help.
