My ex boyfriend and I broke up April 23rd, 2000. We had been together for three years, and well for the last year were pretty miserable because of outside factors. We were at different points in our lives at that time, and I have come to terms with that and the break up. For awhile it took me a long time to get over him, and I did alot of things that I wish I could take back but I am over that now. He started to see another girl a few weeks after we broke up and than they had moved in together a month after that. I never understood that, but on the other hand I do know that him and I were both hurt in the situation. Breaking up is never easy to do, for either side. Both of you lose at first, but in the end I feel as though we both have won.
The point of this story is my brother and my ex were friends, and they have had a troubled relationship because of the break up. However, they have gotten over that trouble since I am better now and my brother just wants me to be happy. My brother is getting married in the end of june and both of us are in the wedding. I have not seen this guy in three years, and my heart feels like it is going to jump out of my body. I have seen ex boyfriends before and not felt this way. I know that he has also recently become single, and will be going to the wedding single as I have. So many things have changed since we broke up and I have grown up so much since we were together, and I also thought he was my soul mate and never fully got over him.
I guess I am trying to put this all together and see what others think about the situation. I want so bad to tell him how I feel but I can't. That everytime something bad or sad, or good has happened in the past three years I have thought about him. I have dated, I have had boyfriends, I have had casual sex, I have had drunken nights, and most of all I have loved again. But I still believe he is the one, and I don't think I can live with myself if I let this opportunity go out the door. I mean how many times will the both of us be single at the same time? Please let me know what you feel about this and should I just let it go, and not even say anyhting to him. Should I just play it cool, and go on how he reacts?