hottottie

i feel like i've tried and tried, and I just don't wnat to try anymore. I see it as being a waste of time trying to figure "us" out and the situation of him acting jealous and thinking i'm not trustworthy. I did nothing in my time to make him think so, and its putting me in this hard place. I think about being with him, and then i think about not being with him. Its ridiculous I know. Maybe i'm just ridiculous. Committing 6 years of my life to him, hasnt been hard, but it seems to be getting harder these days (not in the fact i want to be with soemone else) its just getting harder to see through this issue he has and see him for what I used to see him as! (if that makes sense). :sad:

he's dust not the same, and that kills me inside. we've tried talking, many many times, and when we do, things get better, but a few days/weeks later, back to square one. It tearing me up, I feel its unhealthy, but i'm also scared. (not for my life or anything like that) I just feel lost ...

nothing. I've never cheated on him, never had a thought to, and as far as i know he hasn't cheated on me. I regained contact with a few girlfriends from high school and started going out with them a few years ago, and rekindled our friendships, and I love them. But I love him too. I ALWAYS choose him over them, for he is MY boyfriend, but the fact of the matter is I dont know if he really sees how much I appreciate him. I tell him, but its like he doesn't believe me. He goes out with his buddies all the time. They go places, do things, I dont question him at all. I just don't understand?

I have been dating my boyfriend for almost 6 years now (it will be 6 in February). In the beginning it was great, but the last few years have been "weird". He constantly is checking my myspace, facebook, cellphone(dates, times, numbers), constantly calling asking what i'm doing and when I dont answer he just keeps calling and calling until I do. He questions me all the time. He wants me to call everytime I go somewhere so he knows where I'm going, who i'm with, and what i'm doing. He is a great guy, a great person, but I don't know if I can handle this anymore for myself. We've talked about it plenty of times, and he always has answers that are good answers, but I don't feel i'm living life like I want to. I mean I want to marry this guy and have him be the father of my kids, and he knows this, but I dont want to be surrounded by this kind of issue the rest of my life? I want to be able to go out with the girls, or just go out by myself without being badgered. I also caught him watching porn the other day, didn't say anything about it to him. Its just another thing I can add onto my "list". Leave all the replys you'd like, and don't be offended to speak your mind because I really would like to hear what you are thinking about this!