bechtel

I'm going to tell her this. Everyone else has always bent over for her.

does this make sesnse or not.....

"Being 33 years old, I find it to be very juvenile to not "try" and then "DUMP" someone after everything they shared and everything they tusted in you. And although it is never a good time to break up, it is ESPECIALLY inconsiderate to dump a "FRIEND" just before the holidays." Emotional Tease

thanks man.....Istarting to get MAD....see my "angry" post.....

Ya know, I'm all freaking alone in some screwy little town dealing with a sudden, long distance break up which I thought wasn't even close to happening and I finally ask the one person from my work place to hang and drink a few beers so I could at least have some one to actually talk to....they said sure....I'm freaking pissed! Have they shown up? NO! Right after work they said.... looking forward to some human contact since the over-the-phone break up and I get freaking stood up! I'm mad and mad as hell! And i'm not going to take it anymore!...(Network) God damn it.....I'm at witts end! screw everybody! My ex has all sorts of support to distract....screw her! Probably not even thinking about me. I'm pissed, I tell you! VERY ANGRY NOW! sorry had to vent.

it was laid back before, but since i've been gone, I've called everyday...maybe it just got a bit intense....she mentioned that we were on different paths...I did tell her I wanted to be with her for the long haul...I did start laying it on a bit much due to the distance She's a great girl.

we'd been together over a year..she doesn't hardly go out much...she's between jobs and the holidays are here....maybe she's stressed...

it's just weird, one week we're making goofy talk on the phone...messages like that, being told I'm her sweet heart...When she declined me to visit her 3 weeks ago...that's when she SUDDENLY said that her feelings were not as strong as mine and it wasn't right for her not to be excited for me to come up...red flag...but when I was there, there was absolutely no indication at all. We freaking laugh and stuff never argue....

250 miles....She did say it was harder than she thought it would be, the long distance...it was just bad timing, I'm beginning to think the pressure was pressure being in a committed relationship.... she did say she may be afraid of commitment.

things were cool before I left, I moved and probably over-compensated cause of the distance...wanting to visit every weekend...But the last time I saw her she was sad to see me leave. Then I told her later that I wanted to come up again the very next weekend....Distance made everything a big deal to her...

She said twice that it wasn't someone else, That the distance made the situation seem pressured when I visited and that my feeling were stronger than her feelings and it wasn't fair.

She is 33...

Long distance relationship broke up out of the blue. Visited her one weekend...GREAT. Always been great. didn't see her next weekend...she went out with friends from out of town. Then the next weekend she says she doesn't want to be in a relationship anymore. I asked her if it was someone else. No was the reply. But, my mind is thinking that she was out, got hit on, enjoyed it, maybe gave out ph.#, felt guilty and decided to break it with me. "Didn't want to be in a relationship." I'm just trying to figure out if I'm being lied to or if she really is confused and feels pressured. Although it may not be a lie cause there really is not another person but I want to know from her if it's the idea of another person. "Keeping options open." This break up came way out of left field....

I'm doing that 20/20 hindsight thing................... Getting to me.

I really feel like I've damaged opportunity of getting back. So this NC stuff begins, I can only further do damage. I have yet to let it out, the crying. Damn this is so weird. I feel emotionally numb at the moment. Other times I'm fighting back tears. The worst is the isolation. I can't concentrate at my job. I want to sleep. Make plans to get out of this place. Figure out what I'm going to do. Even when I start to think about that, it's very hard to think about plans without her involved. Then the spiral effect happens.."what do I do?! what do I do?!" I know, move on...I've been moving on all my life. I want to settle down. It's getting very tiresome. The hope of finding your mate. I thought I did find my mate but "the timing is off" she said. Then I act very uncool and immature by calling and bringing her down. Now I'm mad at myself.