Dindi

I was afraid of that. I actually agree with you that I eventually I will take down the wall, but I'd rather make it gradually. Thank you for your answer, I'll work on that.

Well, here it goes. I tried to define the feelings that I have in the most truthful way to myself. And it sounds very unhealthy to me. Is it the fear of relationship or the fear of something I can't even think of? In my other post I wrote about the guy I like and everything and basically I want a relationship and somebody to care for me and to care for. Now, when I get to the point where I have two paths: one - the step towards the relationship, and two - the step away from it, I always choose the second path. First I thought that I'm not ready for the relationship, but if I want one that means that I am ready. now I don't even know what to think. I feel like I'm doing something wrong when I'm about to take the "relationship step". Maybe it's not the right person who I want the relationship with?? I always had some crushes on someone, but I never felt that it was vital for me to have the real relationship. I was satisfied the way I am. Secondly, I suppose that I want the relationship to begin to explore the sexual part of it (I don't mean sex). I don't want the guy to be deeply attached to me, and me to him. However I want the relationship to be filled with emotions and love, and exploration of the abilities, and the ability to discover new things (not only sexually). To explore the life in relationship is absolutely different than to explore it by yourself. But as soon as I see somebody I'm attracted to, I don't feel that I can be in the relationship. It's so strange to me. I'd appreciate thoughts on this. Dindi.

Yeah, I know what you're talking about. I like a guy and I've been giving him those treatments and I always asked myself why did I do this and I have no answer for that. Just somwething inside of me clicked and I couldn't look at him while he was looking at me. I then wished that he would come up and talked to me. So I agree with vermilion and zrehman that you should talk to him.

Thank you for advice. I look at him more and smile (I did today. Didn't have time for conversation, though). Well, he smiles back. I feel some positive vibrations coming from him, so I will proceed. And I checked the laws here - it's legal for me to have the relationship with a 15 year old and when I'm 19 he'll be 16, so it will be legal too. Wish me luck (although I hope I don't need it )

Thanks. I will tottaly try some of your advices.

Maybe. I don't feel that this is that big of a difference. If we are on the same level mentally than age doesn't matter, right? If it does to guys than is there something i should do??

Thanks. I'm 18. Well, he's nervous when he speaks in class and he's usually quiet, so I thought at once that he's shy. Now that I think of it maybe he's not.

Hi. I'm new to this forum. I tried to find some help on other forum but it wasn't so friendly. Some feedback on myself. I'm a little bit shy, but I push myself to be outgoing, and I haven't had any real and long relationships (just wasn't ready, I guess). Can't think of anything else. So, what's bugging me is that I have this shy guy in my class that I like. I see him every day for an hour, and then I also see him once a week later in the day (hope you understand). He's 3 years younger than me. I talked to him couple of times and he's even funny at times (it's then I realized that i like him). Since then I haven't talked or looked at him much, cause I didn't want to put him in an uncomfortable situation. And today I bumped at him. Basically there was 4 people in the room including him and me. And I began talking about event that took place nearby and how incredible it was (began to be too expressive ](*,) ) And I asked him a couple of questions and then I again was afraid to look at him (so he might think that i'm ignoring him) and he left while I was talking to other people. I think I behaved bad. I'm wondering what should I do now? Should I apologize? How can I let him know that I like him without scaring him off? Sorry if it was too long.