sandyv

Hey there, its me Sandy again, Desert I feel the same way, whats happiness anyways???

Hey Boss, STOP RIGHT THERE, don't dare do anything right now.

Take it from a girl like me... I was so in love, I got tossed to the side of the road like roadkill and thought of jumping off the highest bridge I could find.... but in the interim I found this site.... and it has been very theraputic... have a drink or two, or whatever calms you down and know we have all been through this...

most people here have said things similar as you and me too...

Take care of your basic needs, try to talk to friends, family... anyone who can help you right now... enotalone is good.... I had no one else when my relationship ended that I could talk to.....

Talk to me or anyone here, we DO CARE....

As sad and confused as I've been, I've been getting lots of male attention, come-ons etc..... its does help the ego a little especially when my ex left me lying on the side of the road like roadkill?

Also any way alot of the interested guys know that my relationship with Jack has ended... I guess that has lots to do with it.

Very strange days indeed

BeStrong: Amen, very well said.....

Thanks Scout and Okie for your replys..... its just awful how the dumper can actually make themselves justified for hurting someone else.......

In a way thinking about his attitude helps me, cause I never ever did anything but love him.

Yep NC is the ONLY option. Its not right that I'm actually questioning myself about what could I HAVE DONE WRONG

As sad as it is girl Nadine, take it from one who knows.... he isn't worth your time, you are a good person, don't let him f...K you around, i've being going through this for 2 months and its horrible, get on with your life, you are a good person, screw him.... I've made a mess of things over love for my ex... don't make the same mistake girl....

As for me, Sandy, I'm at a loss as to what to do in regards to the holidays, never mind the weekends etc........ Since I lost Jack I'm extremely sad... and it doesn't matter what happened, (he was an A**hole but I do miss him) and don't have any idea how to carry on......

Hey Bewitched Heads up, this IS NOT GOOD, I've been there, these guys are totally unreal and selfish, so please beware, be a step ahead of him,,,, give him the cold treatment after this kinda behaviour, because I believe disaster is imminent here... be careful ok?

No didn't get my stuff back, he said he "didn't have time to look for my things" and ya know, forget it..... I feel like I got kicked in the teeth, forget it... forget everything, I'm sooo devestated he can go to hell, but it feels like I'm starting over again, sooo hurt.....

Yeah I know iAMteddy..... but its a very small limited area..... no where to go around here..... I don't understand how he can say what he did, but ya know I'm totally heartbroken,,,, I guess NC is totally broken in this case........ I feel like jumping off my balcony, only i live on the ground floor..... lol

He hates me....

My ex Jack is something else...... we broke up about 2 months ago bc he cheated on me with his ex from 9 years ago..... (he never even gave me advanced consideration on this point)

But I'm not without blame, I was leaving the bar today and had to walk by his place, I left some expensive jewellery there, and being slightly buzzed it was at the time important to me... so I stopped in......

I cannot believe how defensive he was, he blamed ME for the breakup saying I didn't care enough, was not understanding... I'm so upset, hurt etc....

How it ended after about 10 minutes was he left me at his place, and went for a beer at the bar.... I left.... I cannnot believe how heartless he is.... trying to put it all on my shoulders...; can't stop crying

Yeah this one also says it all

BTW It is by the Rolling Stones, a hidden gem on one of their older albums..

I can almost hear you sigh

I can almost hear you cry

On every crowded street

All the places we would meet

What will I do without you

They say that life goes on

I'm feeling sorry for myself

I can't believe you're gone

You acted much too calm

You turned on all the charm

You had a cold look in your eyes

I can feel your tongue on mine

Silky smooth like wine

I'm living with those memories

That's all that's left of you and me

I can almost hear you sigh

Almost hear you cry

When you made sweet love to me

And you turned on all the charm

Acted much too calm

You had a cold look in your eyes

Did it mean nothng

Was it all in vain

Was I just your fool

Or was the pleasure pain

Have you set me free

Or will I wake up

In the morning

And find out it's been a bad dream

Come on, I beg you

I want to be your main man

I can almost hear you sigh

Almost hear you cry

When you make sweet love to me

Almost see your smile

It stretched half a mile

You had a stone cold look in your eyes

Yeah this song is from way back.... but I heard it the week after I lost Jack: .... so much meaning there for me:

When I come home you telephone

To say you're waiting for me

I ask you why - I hear you cry,

But you're still waiting for me

Someday you'll be shedding your tears

To cry over me

Someday I'll be losing this fear

Now I'm alone, you telephone

To tell me you don't need me

I ask you why, you tell me lies

And say the truth would hurt me

Someday you'll be shedding your tears

To cry over me

Someday I'll be losing this fear

Oh, Oh . . . someday

Down in the street where lovers meet

That's where I'm waiting for you

In the streets where lovers meet

I'm still waiting for you

Someday you'll be shedding your tears

And then you'll cry over me [cry over me]

Someday I'll be losing this fear

Someday you'll be shedding your tears

And then you'll cry over me [cry over me]

Someday I'll be losing this fear

Thnx lone, I really appreciate your kind words... but the thought of EVER getting involved again scares me to death, it will be a long time if ever.

No, had no alcohol last nite (Sunday) still feeling crummy, but up and at em.... off to the zoo I call work......... ;(

Hey Malaika, yeah got some sleep last nite, but woke up feeling like sh*t, bad dreams, featuring who else but the ex..... urrrrrg....

;(

Captain, I have followed your posts, yet never giving you my point of view. I see that you are very much in love with this woman.... but just like RedQueen says.. you most definitely have to deal with things, rather than make yourself insane debating back and forth in your head about whats going on... dontcha think?

From following your posts I really don't think you are making any progress whatsoever... sorry to be blunt, but I do believe you may be beating a very, very dead horse.....

Try to deal with things and move on....... nothings apparently going to change from what you have written for a very long time.....

Hey Bluesea, jeez 4 beers seem to be enough to put me to sleep some nights, vodka would kill me for sure........

Yeah weekends seem the worst I guess, things are strange... just want to feel some kinda happiness again...

Hi Malaika, thanks feeling sad but ok, life must go on.... upward and onward

BlueSea:

Thnx so much for your kind words, maybe I'll sleep just a wee bit better tonite.

Hey I've needed some kinda tonic, beer isn't the biggest sin in the word, I don't think lol

Thnx bluesea, guess i've had two many pints, feeling sorry for myself

I'm still not at that point, I just can't believe he's gone still

Aww sweetie I do know how your feeling, I can't let go of him, although he sliced and diced me basically, whats wrong with me, am I into S & M or what, I don't really know..

I loved him to the moon, to the stars, to infinity, thats all I know....