Just some update...
I choose not to tell him the infection, yes, Krieg, u r right, why would I bother to tell him about my well being..
Unfortunately, my blood test revealed that I am pregnant. I have no intention to tell him either - in fact I have planned for an abortion after 7 weeks of pregnancy. I believe that this is the best course of action for everyone of us, though I do agree that baby has the right to live.
However I spoke to him on one night - not on r/ship issue but sth else (two weeks after we split). I got carried away that I accidentally spilled it all out - I am pregnant with his child. He was very surprise about it. He told me that wont let me just carry it all on my shoulder as he is partly responsible for this. He said to me that he wasnt sure he was doing the right thing for giving our r/ship up and he has been thinking it over the last two weeks - He thought I may be the right one, and now I have his baby and he should be responsible for it. He said he can feel my pain over the last two weeks, etc. He even asked me if I wanna marry him, to bring up the baby together...The answer from my part is NO.
I am amazed that man could marry someone that he isnt sure out of responsbility..
Three days later, I went for another blood test, for second opinion. On the test day, he texted me, asking me whats the results and told me that whatever outcome, he would be with me. I felt touched.. But I still maintained my decision, I wont want this baby. Reason being, I would only bring miserable to the baby, as I am unable to give the baby a healthy and happy family.
I decided no point both parties get together bcoz of a baby. If we both are certain for each other, yes, we can be a happy couple and form a happy family. But then we split coz he is unsure about his feeling towards me. If this baby come in between, same problem exists.
I decided to lie to him, though I know I shouldnt - I told him I had a miscarriage, and he believed in me. We talked happily and I pretended everything has finished and this is the destiny. We finished the conversation happily.
Now I have to go for abortion. My mates said I am such a fool, why should I carry it all on my shoulder. But then, I have to ask myself, is there a point for me to tell him, if I am not going to ask him to be responsible for it? Plus I am not ready for a marriage, let alone a baby...
No matter how adamant I am in making the decision, I am still scare when the time for abortion arrives, which is two weeks later...
Do you think I am really a fool?