Im a 18 year old college student. I have met and befriended many girls and have found out that a few of them liked me but I didn't want anything more than friendship with them. About a year ago however I met one of the most interesting girls. Usually I meet really bouncy girls who can only have a conversation that involves humor, which is good to a point. With this girl though I felt I could really talk to her. She was social but not too much, really calm and laid back and gorgeaous on top of it. I really started liking her. But I wasnt sure if i had a chance. Im not and ugly guy but I'm not great looking either. Compared to my guy friends, who from a males view are good looking, I was almost sure she would take a liking to one of them. It wouldnt have been the first time something like this happened. Anyway, I would see her frequently over the next few weeks, but slowly she began to disappear so to speak.
A few months had gone by and I was beginning to lose hope. We connected but we both led different lives. But we had similar interests. I felt like a complete fool. I knew her well but not that well. We knew eachother for a toal of about 2 months give or take a few weeks. This entire past year I have been pretty much thinking of her every day. I miss her so much and no one has seen or heard from her in quite some time. I heard rumors that she got into drugs and what not. Hopefully thats not the case. Now I mainly just work, go home, listen to music and occasionaly cry myself to sleep. Even now I can feel tires brewing in my eyes. Someone please help me. I dont know what to do. I recently met a girl who I found out has a major crush on me, and as flattering as it may be, I still can't get her off my mind. I am sorry for making this so long, but I really need some advice. Please.