SomeOtherGirl

Im a teenager going through that lonely adolescent stage in my life, freshman in highschool. Im at the point where it's like I just don't matter, I serve no purpose. Whatever I do it goes without recognition and there is really no motivation anymore. I often find myself alone just wandering as if I have nothing to do and nobody to talk to. I don't even know what to do anymore. For example ; I am really into playing basketball & have been since grade 1. I thought I was really good and I actually had what it took to be one of the best, one of those people that others looked up to. It all used to be like that. However, being on this varsity team now i'm being benched. My coach doesn't look into my potential nor does he really care to. Now I honestly feel that i'm one of those kids that are just put on the team to make up the full number of the team, the one that is only put in to play for about a minute JUST to say you gave them playing time. We won our game today & I felt worse then I did LOSING. I contributed absolutely nothing to this game because I was at the put in in the last 4 minutes of the game & taken out about a minute later & I only touched the ball once to give a pass. There is absolutely nothing going for me now. Losing friends like flies , everyone is being put into their own little "clique" and i'm the one in the middle that isn't in any of them, and I would hate to be annoying so when they go somewhere I stay behind just so they can't say "uhm where are you going, you aren't wanted here" . Im really lonely but I guess you could say I'm good at hiding it. I have absolutely nobody to express myself to , nobody to give me any advice that I would usually be giving others. I give, give & give , but I often find that in the times when I need , I never receive. I would appreciate your input, I know everyone has been through this or maybe similar. You didn't feel good enough or you just felt like you didn't matter. How did you cope with this? What are the things you did that helped you go from day to day? Anything. Thanks in advance.

I really WANT to move on & forget about him but I have the strongest feeling that he is going to want me later on. We got off to a bad start with everyone telling him things that I never said & I was never really given a fair chance. When he takes the time to find out what type of person I really am , he will have second thoughts. But I dont know how long I can put up with seeing them all flirty with each other it hurts & I don't know how to deal with it. Yes at first it was just an attraction but just seeing the way he acts (with friends) I kind of like him now. =/

Well , I really need your advice . Theres this really cute guy in my 1st & 2nd period class. I got so excited over him & so I told about 3 friends that I was with at the time , that I thought he was so cute. ONE of them ran up to him in gym class & told him I liked him ( she's the type of person to play around with situations when it doesn't include her but when it does she gets serious , anyways ) . Ever since then he has been acting shy around me & avoids eye contact & whatever . BUT REMEMBER : I didn't say I LIKED him i simply said that I thought he was cute , so there she just started drama. The next day was basically the same , his shyness & avoiding eye contact whatever. I sometimes stared @ him just because of how cute he was & about two times he actually caught me staring @ him & just gave me a " UHMMM OKAY / what are you looking @...... " look . Then I was talking to one of his friends & he had told me that he doesn't like me & that he actually HATES ME because I follow him around ( which I only did ONCE for like 4 seconds because he was near & it was an attempt to make conversation .. very sad attempt I KNOW ! ) . Things were like this for the week or so. TODAY , I seen him & my friend flirting with each other which I didn't really expect too much out of because I convinced myself they were just two friendly people who were just...talking. After that another friend of mine went up to him & asked what he thought about her , he called her sexy & then asked if he liked her he says "what if i do?" . I was so hurt when I heard this because I started to like him a little & I honestly thought that even though he had said to HATE ME ( he never showed it ) we would really become something. But now i feel dead , I feel as if I just don't matter & he doesnt care . OH YES , & to make things worse, on my way to my last period class I seen him & YES i tried to avoid him but the same girl ( my friend ) who he was flirting with was standing nearby in the hall , he walked up to her & said "can't say hi? " then she goes and hugs him up & then says "hiii" smiling & all . I almost started to cry I just couldn't believe that he could blow me off so hard as if he didn't want a girlfriend or wasn't interested in girls @ that time , but yet be so all hung up on my friend & get so touchy with her WHILE I WAS STANDING RIGHT THERE , YES HE SAW ME HE KNEW I WAS THERE . Other facts you should know : - he told his friend I tried to push him down the stairs to get his attention. I WOULD NEVER try to push him down the stairs ! W-T-F ?! I LIKED HIM , WHY WOULD I TRY TO KILL HIM?! - he thought I liked him wayy before because of the girl that told him I did & so from that time is when he started thinking I was weird , WE WERE OFF TO A BAD START. - he avoids contact , ignores me when I try to make conversation , doesn't acknowledge my presense AT ALL . - this girl went up to him & was bothering him constantly about going out with me , talking to me & whatever and he said "NO I DONT WANT TO *beep*ING TALK TO HER " ... this totally sloughtered my chances , he probabbly thinks IM ANNOYING . half of the things people go up to him & tell him are far from the truth ( i never once said i would want to date him ) - the girl that was flirting with him was asked if she liked him , she replyed with an unsure answer kind of like a maybe -- more towards the yes. So now im asking YOU , what do I do?! Do I just move on ? Should I still try to get him even though my chances don't look too good ? What if they start dating , how should I cope with that ? ANYTHING , people please. Here is a girl in desperate need of YOUR help.

Recently, I have met these 2 wonderful guys. I met both through 2 different friends and it seemed to have been going great. With boys guys we talked for a little, laughed, had a good time. We were both physically attracted to one another, but I really only saw that as a bonus becuase I was drawn to the type of person they were. Well, I got so attached to both of them in about two days that I just wanted to talk to them all the time & they would ask my friends for me so it seemed like they were going through the same thing. Well now its like I can't get either of them off my mind I just want to talk them and have a really good conversation with them because they left me so far in that I didn't really get to comprehend how they really were. I cant help but think im missing out on something really good with each of them. This isn't the first time I couldn't let go. I dont really understand why this happens to me. Why is it that I try to hook onto every person that I meet? Its like theres no hi & bye with me I must get to KNOW them. WHY? WHATS WRONG WITH ME!?