cokemachine

Today I went to visit my grandma at the hospital. She was in coma and I have a really bad feeling that she might not make it. I can't fall asleep, I keep on thinking about her all night. I really hope that she can make it through this. I feel so sad, and I hate myself for pretending nothing is happening when my girlfriend asked me how was my grandmother. I hate myself for not being able to cry. I hate myself for not spending more time with my grandma when she was around. I hate myself.