It has been 7 months..it was exciting when we had long distance relationship.. instant message everyday..talked on the phone..sent chocolates and flowers.. he asked me to move to the eastcoast...which i did move in with him..since then we hardly talk ... he is always tired, busy with work or sleep ... am stress too due to looking for a job in order to stay here in the US ... worse of all ... i cant seem to even tell him about my sorrow the fact that i didnt want him to have added stress. Sometimes, he knows that he has ignored me..and he made up by saying..he loves me..and tell him what he loves about me..but it somehow doesnt seem to convince me..and i dont feel it... the fact that he is separated with his ex wife w a 2yr old daughter..make me insecure..i feel that he hasnt get over with his ex.....spending time over at her place 2 x a week to see his daughter...hidden pictures and letters i found..made me feel even worse...i have thought about telling him..that i want to go home for good..but somehow i just dont have the gut to tell him..because we both know ..it is a depressing topic to discuss about..i dont know if he is using me because of loneliness or that he is in love with me even though he does tell me that everyday....i feel that i have nothing to offer him due to insecurity of my current life even though i do care for him..
