The problem with therapy is that I can't talk about my problems openly. Which is why I posted my thoughts here, where no one will know who I really am. I feel like if I reveal my problems to a therapist, that the therapist will be secretly mocking me. I put on a tough face on the outside and pretend like it doesn't bother me but inside I'm a very lonely person. And yes, you are right that the problem does extend to other areas of my life. I'm afraid to take big risks. My parents always made me feel like the world is out to get me. My mom even calls every week or so to remind me of all the things I shouldn't be doing. She even tells me not to go over to any of my friends house, because she thinks they will kill me or something. It might sound crazy to you guys, but I believed, and still believe a lot of the things they said to me. I'm a shell of a man. I pretend to be a man on the outside, but the truth I feel like I'm still trapped in my teenage years, as far as my maturity and emotions go. When my college friends talk about their girlfriends/boyfriends, and other topics that relate to that such as dating, clubbing, etc. I always stay quiet so they don't try to ask me about my non-existant love life, and the fact that the only place I go besides school and work, is the laundromat. I wish there was some kind of online therapist that I could speak to without revealing my identity.