All I can say is that I seriously appreciate the advice from every single individual over here.
LAL wrote:
No reason really, my friends and I always call our wives "The Wife".
some_guy282 wrote:
This is the type of person I am. I have done this with every single trainee we had; the difference is that with this one I crossed my line and screwed up.
I am that kinda of person who planned every single thing for his life. You are totally right, I need to get tested for STD now, I need to know and hope to God she isn't pregnant. As far as I know, I may have already destroyed my life.
To be honest, I don't think I'll ever tell my wife. Maybe I'll just let it go as if it never happened and compensate her greatly. I realize that even if I tell the wife and she stays with me, the trust is gone.
What really hurts me is how much I am also attached to my wife's Mom and Dad; they had us live with them for 2 years making sure we save money and get on our feet, they fed us, paid for our food, and never asked for a dime.
How I betrayed this trust is killing me.
No matter how much I write I can never express the shame and the guilt I am feeling. In a way, I truly understand why ancient people stoned such people and if I am to be stoned to death with it so be it.
theantibarbie23 wrote:
This woman is dysfunctional I believe. After only one week of being together she's already asking for one. I think the reason why she is so attached to me is because she grew up without a father. Amazingly, her father was having an affair with her mom and she was the product of it. Her father never told his family and died without them even knowing about it. When I showed up with all the protection and need (my shining asmor), she saw in me the "father figure" and I admit I took advantage of it just to experience lust. Now, if she really gets pregnant, then she is repeating the same story her mother did. I can't imagine the same story happening again. As far as her mother goes, and if she really gets pregnant, then what comes around will come back to haunt her again.
iceberg21 wrote:
She will be leaving for the oil rig tomorrow and won't be back for a couple of weeks. By the time she comes back I will be gone to England for more training and when I come back in June, the house I am building for the wife and the daughter will be ready for closing. I work in the office and she works in the field. She will be gone for weeks and back for a day or two. This job is really hard and like I said before, it is not fit for females to do due to the huge physical work required for it.
MaxPayne19 wrote:
Today will be the last day I hope and then she will be gone. However, I feel that I do not want to wait until her next period to find out whether she is pregnant or not. I am thinking of doing a blood test. We have been having sex for a week now.
If any know about this please help. Is the blood test going to determine if she's pregnant earlier than regular urine tests? I may have to drag her to a doctor to do it before she leaves for the rig.
I am 28 right now, and worked so hard to build a decent life for my family and me; I ask myself, why would someone self-destruct like that? How can I destroy my own life with my own hands? It is nothing but an amazing thing. Sometimes I tell myself I worked so hard and I need some amusement, and I really did suffer so much, but again this is never an excuse. I watch the news, see people getting killed, robbed, cheated on and so on and I tell myself am not like those retards". Well, I am now.
Like I said above, words can never express how screwed up I feel. I know that some of you will read this and say a loser". Believe it, I was that guy who used to say that stuff and now it is said back to me.
My priority right now is to make sure she isn't pregnant, but my problem isn't' over. She works with me, and like others said she may go tell the wife about it. Maybe this is the least I deserve as a punishment but I hope it never comes. I have already told her that she shouldn't stop looking for a mate even though she claims she is in love with me. I have lied to her and said that I love her, but I can't be with her because I cannot have my baby daughter live without a father. She understands that. But again, what if she gets pregnant? I don't know. I just don't want to think about it; it's too big of a thing for me to bare.