Hi All,
Well it is a year and four months since I started dating my girlfriend. I met her right after I was divorced from an 11yr marriage and was looking for something to fill that void. When I first met my girlfriend we fell in love and even talked about having kids. After four months of dating she told me she's pregnant. Neither of us believe in abortion and she told me she wanted to have that "special connection" with me, so we keep the baby. We now live together, she has a son (10) from a previous relationship and I have one as well who is (15) so we just basically started an instant family and added a baby.
Don't get me wrong I love the baby and I love having the family unit. It is very comforting, but the girl. Sometimes I feel resentment towards her for pushing me into this relationship that I really didn't choose. It seems like she is taking advantage of me now since she can't work. I am now the daddy of her kids and sole provider for all of us.
Sometimes I want to run away.
Sometimes I wonder if it's better to be happy than noble.
Sometimes I wonder if I should stay and see it through for the kids.
We're not married yet and I am finding it harder and harder each day to find the will to make that commitment.
Any advice or thoughts or comments?
Thanks,
Mike in San DIego