well i am 16 and there is this girl at school that i like and she likes me too, but when i see her, my face turns demonically red and I can't say anything, and then later i feel like crap and think "you should've said something you piece of ****! HAHA!" and this has been happening for a year. she clearly wants me but i'm so stupid.
for 2 straight days I was thinking "don't care what happens, just talk to her, you are god" and my face got way less red and i felt less frozen and like i could've said something, but she had a zillion friends at her locker and there's no way in hell i will survive that much pressure. even when I trick myself to have supreme self confidence of a psychopath by thinking I am god and everyone else is a talking monkey, that does work for everything except this situation because of these nasty panic attacks of fear.
is there some way i can stop this gay shyness? everytime i see her i get a little bit less shy, but the difference is so tiny that only an insane doctor can notice. what the **** do I do to stop this?! I feel like dying, jesus christ...