Hey! me and my partner have been together on and off for a year, we have had our ups and downs, we are happy together but some days we fight and we are not happy with each other. I love him, and we went out on a date on his birthday, he enjoyed it, we went out on the lake on a swan, and we had a good time, after that we argued and he moved on with my best friend when he came running back to me saying he missed me etc. we are currently together and we often fight but we are happy together.he often cheated on me and I am so silly for taking him back but i cant deny the love i have for him, my best mate pushed her things up and he fell in love and cheated on me saying things about me which broke my heart inside, is that normal? I am not here to feel oh help me but want to address cheating hurts the other half as in my case he has hurt me. he kept saying i caused his cheating when i did not i did not tell him to cheat i stuck by him and he hurt me by cheating which is not nice. when you feel low like me after the break up, I have had mental health issues that he knows off, i got beaten up and he stood outside laughing, I was struggling with things that had happened at home and he had the cheek to rip me off like that it made me feel really sick inside and he calls me once each day and never hardly messages me, i don't feel like he actually wants me.
I have suffered previously, with the date of loss of my nan and things and he knows when those dates come I am upset and to be gentle to myself but he sometimes wants to help me but he just gets bored and confides in me which makes me think he only is using me for when he has nothing else to do as he does it often and he even said it once. I am new to everything with kissing etc and I aren't a fan but i did it to please him as he is that type of guy, I aren't dissing him I am just letting everything out as that's what is best rather then build things up. he can go 3-4 days without messaging me and when he eventually messages me he replies and is rude, he says why you ignoring me stop annoying me and get lost. it breaks my heart. i aren't here to annoy him I want him to recognise that i am here for him i love him and i am standing around and getting messed about as that's not fair.
Jess