Leila22

Thanks! I feel so powered against him, I'm a free women!! Hello, yes I've got multiple hotlines to access, so I'm very greatful!.

Not been doing great, things have happened I'll explain here- it's to do with him... I have had to put up with abuse and rape from him for 6 years. I have had it rough with him, I'm working with the police from today to get a order against him so that he cannot message me, come to my mother's home, see our daughter without supervision, as I do not trust him with her, she's fine it's him I honestly don't know what he'd do to her, especially with what he did to me, raped me pushed me, hit me etc so I have to protect her for now until I get that restraining order against him she isn't seeing her dad. This is hard for me to write as I spent 2 and half hours with police I talked about everything he did to me over the 6 years I was with him, it was hard because the police officers were male and I was worried even though my mom was in the other room that they'd hurt me but I know they won't, silly me for over thinking. But, they have recommended that if I ever see him coming to my mothers house that I dial 999, and that I go to a room and lock myself in their with my mom and dog and daughter etc, because he's a dangerous man, but the police are working fast on this. I gave them the video recordings of him forcing himself on me and him hurting me, which breaks my heart because I was worth nothing in those moments and I'm worth nothing to anyone anymore due to what happened to me.. which kills me even more. Yes you all know I have a 5 year old daughter, she's safe but yes I was 19 turning 20 when I had her but I wasn't planning on having a child young but he raped me after being together for a year, I have always said I'm never giving up a child never ever because I've been in Foster care until I was 18 for 15 years, and I could never let my child I have inside of me go through that, so I kept her and he has raped me ever since and abused me ever since. But who's the winner? In all this, I know I feel like -crap- at times and that I feel like ugh I can't do this anymore but I'm winning I'm fighting for me and my daughter, I honestly am so proud ! That, I'm not only protecting me, and my daughter but I'm protecting my mom and daughter, and other women out there from thus man who could hurt them which I don't want so putting him behind bars is what he needs for hurting and attacking me! @spinstermanquee @smackie9 I'm okay

I'm here I'm safe

I'm sh I'm done

Thank you, I did get support! How are you?

Thx

I will, well I'll try.

I dislike how I'm feeling, cutting every night it's really not healthy, it's a downer on my mental health and my physical health. I will look into it.

I will, just it's hard to tell someone you're wanting to self harm as others need help more then you. I feel like my self harm isn't serious, but maybe it is

Yeah, I told him I don't want sex I'm not ready, but he said oh so if I forced you what would you do, so I'm like I walked away and cried and cut due to old r@pe situations. I don't know what to do anymore and it's hurting me.

Thank you. I am now crying because this is so kind. Omg thank you 😭😭

Hello, Thank you, I understand. I'll take this into consideration thank you.

Thank you!! Hope you're well!

I have had a rough time during my life, I've been in Foster care, I've been abused, I've had all sorts of *** happened to me, but I'm letting it all go. It's not easy, no way am I saying that, but I am finally letting myself heal. Yes, the r@pe was only recent, I'm working with the police, my therapist and my boyfriend to make a path to go forward in life to stay alive and live a beautiful life, yes there will be hiccups, but it won't be like this forever, so I am not giving up !!

It is a healthy relationship, but we're young so I'm still very slightly confused.

I would, if you still love him and you still want a relationship, I'd try and work things out, but be more cautious to not let things happen again as that isn't good on you're behalf.

So, I know it sounds silly but I get a sexual feeling sometimes towards my boyfriend, but we aren't ready to have sex or do sexuak things. I feel bad if I tell him, but I know we're not emotionally ready to do it. I feel like I'm ruining our relationship, because I got abused recently, and I'm constantly getting check ups etc, talking to the police and I feel like I'm ruining our relationship because I'm a bad person, I'm not sure I'm sorry. Roxie

he is my baby

thank you. you havent even see me to know if i can do better. i have my dog with me so i am not alone. i dont need him

i have told and taken my way away from him. i am listening to you all and i dont deserve him i really dont