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Okay I know this will sound stupid, but I just found out about "gag reflexes". The reason I found out was my boyfriend was gaging on food that got caught in his throat. This was really strange to me, I reached my finger as far back as I could and I could feel down my throat. I have no gag reflexes! Is this a problem?? Whats up with me??? Info please!

I do not build my life around my boyfriend, he's someone I love. I do not obsess about him or anything like that. I think when people support the idea that you need friends is wrong. I had one good friend who screwed me over. So I think I'm all funned out. That whole friend phase never worked for me. I've become more independent this way, (I love not needing people, its my favorite thing about myself.) I don't want friends. But my internet problem is getting worse all the time, I can hardly sleep. And its not even to go on link removed anymore

the problem is I'm out of school (yes I gratuated) , I'm NOT intrested in college because I DO NOT want a career, I am happy having a normal job . Thus I do not get the oppertuntiy to hang out with people, I have a boyfriend, and we live together, so its not anything like that, I live in Asheville 90% of them are obsessed with art, if your not ingrossed in it, nobody wants anything to do with you. Kids that you do see are normally college kids and there all into self expression, and causes agianst bush, that kind of stuff...I just really don't fit in where I live. I'm not like the people around me thats why friends are not an option I've given up on them, thats why I need help mainly with the computer addiction

Well I have no friends, I mean NO friends...this use to upset me. I used to always cry about it. Then I started to convice myself that I didn't need anyone. So I've become very introverted, I avoid social situations and people, I've become more independent this way. My problem is I've been a frequent vistor of the oo so popular . Its the only way I have friends if and when I need them and I've become addicted to this website, and I can't stop. Anyone have any advice? besides making friends (THIS IS NOT AN OPTION) Does anyone else have this problem?

I have been in the same position, it tore me up inside and I couldn't handle it at all.

I was so angry and jealous all the time, that I eventually lost my only friend,

I've ever had, be careful and know that he may not be there forever, but if your a real friend you will be

Take one day at a time, and don't be pressured by what you think you need to do, but instead,

by what you want to do-even if you don't know what that is yet. You may have been basing your

dreams around certain idea's, and in a way lieing to yourself so many times you've lost sight of

either what you really want or what is really going on.

You rock my socks Rach

I'm a foster child, so the anwser is no.

I don't want to scare you off but If you ever need someone to talk to please feel free to email or AIM me, I'll be here if you need me

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She may want you to take control,and feels embarresed about it.

Another thing she may feel dirty for whatever reason. personally I

enjoy when my pleasure is in the hands of someone I love.

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Thats so cute!

Your dad needs to know that there is a big world around you,

and that he can't be with you every second, and that when you

grow older you could resent him forever for going against you.

And remember you may only be 14 today, but soon you'll be old

enough to start a life with whom ever you choose, wether he's

going to except it or not

I think thats great that you're not ashamed of your sexually,

and as for your dad, let him know that you have strength to

love people for who they are, not for their gender

This is from my favorite book, I know it looks long, but please read.

The Prophet

By: Kahlil Gibran

"When love beckons to you follow him,

Though his ways are hard and steep.

And when his wings enfold you yield to him,

Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.

And when he speaks to you believe in him,

Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.

Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,

So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.

He threshes you to make you naked.

He sifts you to free you from your husks.

He grinds you to whiteness.

He kneads you until you are pliant;

And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,

Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,

Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.

Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.

Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;

For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, I am in the heart of God."

And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.

But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips"

Good Luck to you.

Hey Ctgirl, Well it may be because, my mother favors my brother because he's so artsy. She always goes against what I say, everything I do, its not the way it should be done. My room is never clean enough, and she moved my room to downstairs because she ashamed of the thought of having her friends seeing my bathroom, its just strange.

Darkblue, Don't attack me, you have no right.

If you're over there playing the violin, thats you deal.

I was only kidding, and "pole humping" is what strippers do.

How would like me to sugar coat it for you?

Spinning and thrusting around a candy cane?

And as for you comment about what is and isn't healthy, is your opinion.

I would not appricate my spouse, looking at other women,

God did not put men on the Earth for that.

The main idea was

A good, honest husband doesn't need a stripper, his wife is always enough.

Maybe you should just ask her about it. It may show her that you

understand the problem,even if she doesn't realize she has one.

Hopefully she'll realize that you care (I don't from a scale of 1 to 10)

And that your really sweet.

Well it could be possible that showing her that you can be there for her,

unlike her other spouse,

it will make her want to be with you more.

And it doesn't seem like shes Independent,

its like she's scared to love/like you with all she has...

which everyone knows is hard, after a hard break up.

Maybe you're the first guy to be nice to her.

Who know's other guys may have cheated,abused, she could have low self esteem...

I don't no, you may not either, but don't give up on her.

Good Luck to you.

Well I don't get out much because I can't relate to the people in my community,

Asheville is a real political city, you know all the people

who stand in the streets yelling about Bush with signs. All the kids

are like that too. I left high school early for saftey reasons,

and got a GED, recently moved here (Asheville) Since I'm not in school,

and have no will to go back, it makes it harder to have friends

I know how you feel, I haven't had any friendw for two years, I cry alot,

but it makes me stronger I guess, I've had a really good boyfriend, for a year now,

and I still get lonely but everyday, I pray to find someone special enough to connect with me,

someday I will, and so will you

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Wow. me and many others have had this happen to them.

Walk away. Because while your with some guy who may not even care about you,

you could be looking for one who does, best of luck.

Wow. Thats really evil of them to do that. YOU are going to be his wife,

YOU need to make the choice, when its me, there will be no strippers...

that man should be dedicated to you, not some pole humpin stripper,

don't mean to be offensive. Good Luck to you.