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Hi everybody, this is my situation. I have a friend and I luv(ed) her like a sis. There has always been this thing about her I just can't STAND...She brags to me about how much guys tried to talk to her that day, how her boyfriend bought her wutever ... etc. It gets me sooo anoyed...and when I am happy I feel like she trys to bring me down in a way. I feel ugly around her she puts me down when were with other people saying stuff like ( ur stupid get a life, nobody likes u...etc ) and its only around other people. I believe that in a friendship the friend's should encourage each other and stuff like that. She doesn't do that she makes me feel bad about myself and she makes me feel stupid. I already have a low self-esteem and she helps in no way. I feel ugly and alone about this whole thing. I no longer see her as a bestfriend but I still think of her as a friend. I help her when she needs help I am there for her...I wish I could say the same vice-versa. I feel like getting rid of her for good, deleteing her off my contact list on msn since she cant keep my name out of it and deleting her number out of my phone since she only wants to talk about herslef. I just think that this might be wrong since she might not have a clue that I feel like this ... but there was actually one time when I couldn't take it and i snapped on her we didn't talk for like 4 months or so but i apologized because i felt bad and i thought i would be losing something. But this time NO i know now i am not losing a thing if she were out of my life. Does anybody have any suggestions for me...as to what i should do or say to her...in hopes of trying to change her a bit? Thanx in advance (i hope i haven't confused u in anyway)

16 and up.

Well uh here's my situation. I am only 13 years old but I am only attracted to the older guys. A few guys my age have asked me out , and I did at one point say yes to one of them. We went out for like 2 weeks or so and I DID NOT LIKE IT AT ALL. He was so shy and so immature. I talked to him about it , and he said he would try to change a bit. I can admit he did try but it still wasn't working. We broke up. Then I met this other guy and we were always talking and we were always so happy to see each other but he was 16 . I started to like him and i could really tell he was starting to like me too. We ended up going out it was GREAT. He was so fun so intresting never boring like the 13 yr old. I loved it. Unfortunately, since I was so young and not ready to like just cut down to this one guy we decided to take a "break". I tried to force myself to talk to guys my age but still...IT WAS NOT WORKING!! So me and my current bf resumed the relationship. During that time my hormones were RAGING. I always found that I was SO HORNY (kinda bad but still). Me and my bf were always messing around but we were both virgins and we wanted to wait a bit more. We both wanted it so badly though. One night me and him were outside and things got really HOT (well at my age i consider it HOT ) I ended up touching him ALL OVER and yes i mean ALL OVER lol. He did the same with me. I got the chance to touch his -penis- and I thought it was so BIG.Thats another problem im scared that if i go out with a guy my age his penis will be tiny and that's not such a big deal but I dont think it will really turn me on. Anyways, from then on I have not liked anyone else my age. I just really like the older ones. I think its not all that bad because I am in love w. this guy and age aint nuthin but a number. My friends say its wrong, disgusting etc... I can't talk about this with anyone other then my friends....not my mom or dad cuz they don't even like the idea of me talking to guys... I just wanna know what you all think about this and give me reasons!! Thanx So Much in advance... ...