Here is my story. I have been hiding my feeling for women for a long time. I have dated guys and always felt like something was not right. However, I have never pursued women because I feared many things, but most of all I never knew if they were lesbian or straight. Well, now I am interested in a friend of mine and I know that she is a lesbian. I do not know what to do. She thinks I am straight. These feelings came out when my brother, his girlfriend, the girl I am interested in, one other lesbian, and me went to a lesbian club. I didn't know what to think. The girls introduced us as the straight people. I laughed it off. As I watched this girl interact and move about the club, I was so captivated by her. Only by her though. I could have cared less about the other women there. Truthfully, I didn't want anybody but her to ask me to dance, but I just stood there and acted like the straight girl in a gay club. This was about two weeks ago. A week ago, I could not hold in my feelings anymore. I went to my brother's girlfriend and talked to her about what I was feeling. So many things running through my mind, I needed someone to talk to. She is a very open-minded person and was very supportive. She works with the girl and they are good friends also. She thinks very highly of this person. However, she was not sure on how I should approach it. For one thing, I have never been with a women, and I don't know if these feelings are just strong "Friend" feelings or if I really do like her. Will kissing and having sexual contact change my mind about the feelings I am having for her? I don't want to just come out to her and not know for sure if she is interested in me and if I know that I am truly interested in her. My brother's girlfriend thought that I could experiment with another girl before acting on these feelings. Like I said before, I am only interested in her and could not think about being with anybody else. I need help. I don't get to see her very often and it is killing me inside. We just email back and forth every once in awhile. What do I do? Any input would be helpful. Thanks!
