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The fights were 50/50... I started some he started some. No fight was left unresolved. I wouldnt let that happen. My past has to do alot with why I used to cut. My real dad was a HUGE pot head and an alcoholic. He used to hit me and my siblings and my mom. I have 4 other siblings so there are 5 of us altogether. Im the youngest. My real dad moved to texas. My step dad came into the picture about a month after my real dad left. I was three going on four. About a year ago I had this one boyfriend who was really pressuring. Sex was a big issue. I didnt want to and he didnt like that. He pushed me around a lot. One day he wanted to make out and I didnt and he shuved me into a wall and forced me to kiss him. It was about that time I began to cut. After about 3-4 months of that kid I broke up with him I couldnt take it anymore. Al he ever wanted to do was fight fight fight. It was a much bigger issue than the guy I am involved with now. Thats why its so hard for me to accept that the reason why Doug wants to break up bc of the fighting bc I stuck it out for soooo long with the other guy. Me and the other guy basically fought from the beginning.

Hi... My name is Hannah. Im 15 so relationship problems here some may think are stupid and unmeaningful. Heres whats going on anyway. I met this guy at school when I came into the high school. I was so excited just to be talking to him. He was cute, funny, and nice. About seven months ago I told him I liked him and he said he liked me back, a little while later we made things officially. You know with titles and everything. About a month and a half into the relationship we took things far. We had sex. I had a few serious bf before him but I didnt feel this way about ANY of them. He means the world to me. He was my first and I was his. So of course we became VERY attatched, emotionally. For at least three months after that everything was great. But for the last two months things seemed to have detieriorated. We fought ALOT... not all the time... but alot. Then about a month ago he broke up with me... told me he couldnt take the fighting anymore. We still talk on the phone everynight and hang out. And when we hang out we still cuddle and kiss. Though I wont do more than that w/o a relationship. He says he still loves me... he makes promises to me like if neither one of us are married by the time we are 30 we will marry eachother... he tells me he misses me... he also says he doesnt know if he wants to date me ever again. That he doesnt think he wants a girlfriend now. He loves me but he cant be with me. I love him so much! I have cried everyday since he broke up with me. I want him back soooo bad. He is the only person in my life that I have. I have gone through alot. He saved me from myself. He got me to stop cutting. Bc he became the only thing in my life I could depend on. I cant depend on my family or friends bc they all suck. Just this one guy who doesnt even want to be with me. But to get to what I need help with... How do I get him back? Please I need him... Im afraid I will hurt myself without him.