here2day

She has been seeing a therapist since we first met each other and for years before that. I even tried to see a therapist once before I moved out of the apartment. She was cutting a lot then and I was unsure of how to deal with everything going on. She used to take about $1,000 in pills a month for her disorder but lost her insurance and now is unable to afford the medication. She seems to be better without it though. I love her but I think everything just might be too much for me to handle. Sometimes the thought of a life with her scares me. I'm just not sure if things are going to get better but I'm torn with the hope that things will.

I've been dating this girl for over two years. We have a lot of fun together. We enjoy many of the same things. I care a lot about her but there are many problems in our relationship. She is bipolar, we very rarely have sex (she has been through a lot in her lifetime and has been tramatized by sex in the past), she sometimes cuts (not so much lately) and well, she likes to fight. I, however, do not like to fight. Sometimes I don't tell her when I am angry in order to try to keep the peace except when she ditches me for her friends. Yesterday she told me she doesn't know what she wants. She said that we can't have a healthy relationship because I don't tell her when I'm angry all of the time in order to avoid a fight with her...fights with her are often irrational and make no sense. I'm in college. I write for a newspaper, I'm stable, I'm sweet, and I'm sure many people would be happy with someone who doesn't like to fight. We once lived together but she refused to get a job so I was working full time, going to school full time, cooking, and always coming home to a messy house. I moved out. She said she felt abandoned. She always says she is going to go to college but never goes. Since her mom died of cancer when she was younger she could go to college for free..not that money for college replaces a parent. I do love her and I care about her..but is this ever going to go anywhere? We really might break up because of our lack of fights but I don't know how I'm going to react afterwards. She is my best friend. Does anyone have any ideas how I could handle each problem? I don't understand her at all.