I am so confused. I broke up with my boyfriend last night, and am finding myself strong and determined one minute, and then tearful and depressed the next.
I am no angel, but he does have some bad points. He constantly puts me down, has become physically abusive, pushes me around, grabs and throws me. He blames me for that ... says I push him over the edge.
He drinks and gambles and this is not what I want for the rest of my life.
BUT, I still love him.
How do I stay strong. I can see myself driving over there tonight and begging him to come home. ( He has his own place, but has been living with me for the past eight months).
I am desperate for the phone to ring, for him to say he is sorry for the hurtful things he said and did last night ( I did same)..so we can just be together again. Just to end this pain and confusion.
