I feel your pain, I am going through the same right now. My wife and I separated a few months ago to see if things would heal. But yesterday we 'decided' that it doesn't work anymore. Forty years old, 2 kids, and I cried a lot. I my case I think it is the fear of rejection that makes me so emotional. And of course the loss of the love of my life. Hang in there, I keep telling myself the same.