silentinside101

So my ex bf...and i broke up about a month or so ago..and i have no idea what i am supposed to do, He SLEPT with another girl about a month before we broke up ...and then never told me..i found out after i ended it with him. He was clearly in the wrong..he has done this to me before also. After 4 months of fating he made out with my best friend when she was wasted. I forgave him n took him back thinking he would be different..i know he really truly loves me and cares so much about me..and i hate to think that 10 months of my life were wasted with a guy, he wants me back so bad, he crys n even cut himself..which i was not happy about. He is really depressed wihtout me, he hasnt gone to school ect. Bu ti told him the other day...if he really wanted me back he wouldnt threaten me that he was hurting himself or cry to me... he would have done somthing for me..surprise me..try and get me back . He has a car...as do i...but he can drive over....n like surprise me with somthing? Am i really in the wrong for thinking that he should do that? he said he had no idea what i wanted..n if he knew i wanted him to try then he would have done it the way i wanted him to. he then said "i will come over right now" I told him it was too late. I mean i SHOULD NOT have to tell him to do stuff for me right? he should have done it on his own? anyway , i really miss him and im depressed without him...i was 5'8 130 lbs...now i weight 110 , cause i cant eat a thing..i cant do anything but think aboout him and how i wish he wouldnt have done what he did..SOMEONE PLEASE JUST TALK TO ME...just tell me what i should do..i need yalls opinions..what do i do? if anything? HELP ASAP im dieing here..

Vday is coming up really soon and i want to do somthing super special for him...im not one to say if im a wild one in bed or not..but i must admit i am pretty rambunctious at times...if he wants me to be that is. I dont know what else to do..we have not tryed anything super crazy..so any type of idea would be great. We are at a really wonderful time in our relationship now..so i really want to make him feel good. Umm..but there is somthing that really bothers me. So no matter what we are doing..i always moan or make sounds or somthing, yet he never does anything..i can hear him breathing heavy...but even when he cums..he doesnt like....give a "wow" or a "whew"..nothing..he just cums..like there is nothing happening..i know he enjoys everything but i want to do somting to really m ake him be like "whoa!!"....help I NEED IDEAS>..ANYTHING !!

i have no one to talk to about any of this, so i thought maybe yall could help. I am scared to talk to any of my friends about this, none of them will just truly understand. Well i was dating a guy for almost a year, Brent and well b4 we started dating he had just gotten out of a long relationship with this nasty chick named Jennie, but thats beside the point, and well he was unsure to go out wiht me or not..he wound up asking me out n everything was fine..we were perfect, i thought we were gunna like wind up getting married...well after liek 4 months he cheated on me with this girl that i hated, and he lied to me about it..eventhough he just kissed her it hurt me really bad, i took him back..stupidly i did...and everything was perfect. Well we recently broke up and I have found Garret, who is my best friend from like 2 years ago..we have gotten so close, now we are together. I know Brent hates this but what else can i do. After we broke up, b/c of trust issues and not seeing each other often, i found out he SLEPT with another girl . This was recently right before we broke up. And the worst thing is, he made me feel like crap for dating Garrett, n i guess wasnt planning on ever telling me about his stupid lil sexual fling with some dirty skank. He really wants me back..i know if we got back together everything would be "grand" yet how can i trust him after he betrayed me TWO times...i really need help on what todo..i want to be with him soo bad..its always been Brent and Laura ..all the memories of us taking rode trips to Sacremento...well anyway..i just miss him so much but i seriously am like in love with Garret, b/c we were best friend..its perfect, but i can NOT brake up with garret..i would hurt him soo bad..yes i want to be with him..but i also want to be the other..i love both ... and it sucks also, becuase i live in california...and brent is going to be going to college soon.... i don know where though...PLEASE HELP..asap..ive been killingmyself 24/7... over this...PLEASE HELP ~ Laura