IsiahsCowgirl

Hey sis, personally, if it was me, I would be extrememly careful not to get myself into a painful situation... Do you what you think is best, but just dont get hurt again.

if you need me, call me!

Steph

Anyone else have any comments?

Thank you... I don't really consider it a hobby... I just sorta only get to do it in my spare time, so much people tend to call it a hobby!

Stephanie

My Tears – Stephanie Cook

I cry for joy and all my happy times with you

But people don't understand

They tell me not to cry and that crying is bad

But crying for joy only makes faces radiant

It's the tears of sadness that darken and stain the face

My tears of joy sparkle as they glide down my face

They shimmer and dance along with my smile

They come to me when you do something sweet

They come to me when you say something that warms my heart

People shake their heads and call me a fool

But I pay them no mind for I cry tears of joy

Tears cried for love and happiness

Tears that will be cried for the rest of time

Love – Stephanie Cook

Feeling the wind comb through my hair is feeling you hold me close

Feeling the rain on my skin is feeling your tears when we are apart

When I look into a pool of water it is like looking into your eyes

Seeing the sun is seeing your smiling face on an early morning

The sun and stars couldn't speak of my love for you

The moon couldn't even begin to understand it

You caught my eye and that was all it took

My forever changed with just one look

Your magic filled the night

You touched my like soul like no one else

I used to wake every night trembling in fright

And now I rest in peace each night

I thank the Lord every day for your presense

He gave you to me to share my happiest and saddest of moments

He has joined us as one in mind, body and spirit

And one will we stay for all of eternity

Our love we will share come what may

For true love bears all things

In Honor Of Shad – Stephanie Cook

He was young - his life barely spent

He had so much ahead of him

But I guess God saw fit

To take our lovely Shad home

We will forever miss him

We will wonder what he would have become

If God had let us keep him

And love him some more

But because he was special we all know

God has given him the best groom

He gets to run with his friends

And play in the sun

For God must have needed him

To have taken him home

So remember his goofiness

Remember his spirit

And maybe someday - if only for a moment

You'll see him again running and playing

Wait for that moment and don't be sad

For he watching over your shoulder

Saying "I love you Vickey!'

"It's me, Shad!"

We Love You Shad!

In Honor Of Ally – Stephanie Cook

She was only a baby

Only just weaned

The last foal of an awesome stallion

The start of new dreams

It happened so suddenly

Then it was over

Our precious Ally was gone

But not for good

She'll live on in every new foal

Every one that shows promise

In the hearts of our children

The ones that always smile

And so happily chatter

"Mommy, look at the baby!"

"Please can I have it?"

We'll lovingly remember her every New Year

And smile so softly at the sound of a nicker

From the foal down the row

As it takes its first tour

Of the world it gets to have

As its very own play ground

So when you see a prospering filly

Don't hold her back

Help her reach for the stars

Because that's where she belongs

Showing the world she's the BEST!

Tell me what you think

Stephanie

I personally have never heard of that... so it'd be interesting to know myself... considering I have went off birth control numerous times and was never late for my periods...

Hey sweetie... just sit back and let things work themselves out...

if you need me you can get a hold of me...

luv ya darlin

If you want someone to talk to, PM me... I'm around and I definitely understand what you're talking about.. I lost my dog in March, and I was strong around everyone, but when I was alone however I was a basket case...

Being in a relationship with a man who went through exactly what you're going through right now, I would say.. divorce is the only way.. her trying to OD or crying all the time, etc etc.. is just to make YOU feel quilty, when its HER who should feel quilty...

I know you love her, but if she's done it 3 times, maybe it's time to do something for you, and find a new life.

Okay, well.. I too have had sex during periods, and there is no way to clean it up, unless you do it in the shower..

And yes, it does help with the cramping

It sounds like he that although he may be attached, that maybe he doesnt feel the need to put himself fully into the relationship... I mean I can understand not including you in some things.. like with Isiah and I... when I say "I'm going to have a reknowned breeding farm" I dont say WE because I know it's going to be ME that does it...

but when I am talking about other things ie, money, home, etc it's always WE/OUR, not Mine/Yours.

I can see how that's painful, I was in a relationship like that a while back.. and it was miserable... if you ever need someone to talk to, just PM me honey!

Stephanie

Well just remember, since you are an adult and she is a minor, there are legal issues that could evenutally cause you problems...

as far as the age difference.. Isiah and I are 4.5 years apart, and I see nothing wrong with it.. however I am nearly 18 and I am mature enough to date someone who is older than me...

at 15 just make sure you dont make her think she needs to grow up too fast.... remember she is still a young lady, not yet a woman, and she needs that time to have fun like all 15 year olds should have....

so long as her parents approve of this relationship, then really I dont think there's a problem

Call her.. tell her you only said what you thought you needed to.. but that you'd like to be friends...

Friendship is the key to breaking down the walls that loom so heavy above her... but it has to be unconditional friendship... you cant get upset everytime she throws that wall back up... when she starts to open up... just listen quietly... and remember, that's a sign of her wanting to open up, wanting to trust you, and that's really the first step, when she WANTS to trust you, you can see it when she tries to open up... but remember she may begin to doubt that she can really trust you and up goes that wall.. PATIENCE, UN-CONDITIONAL LOVE, FRIENDSHIP, AND LOYALTY... they help more than anything.. just listen to her... not just her words, but her actions, her expressions, each one tells a story...

If you want you can PM me and I'll correspond with you there too..

Stephanie

Okay Mandy, I got back to you... it's 11:28

Okay take advice from someone who WAS an emotional brick wall..

I was hurt many times by guys...and others.. it got to where I didnt trust anyone, not even my own parents.. I didnt want any friends.. the only things I trusted were animals...

It takes a very special person, who really knows how to handle someone who's that emotionally standoff-ish....

Us human brick walls tend to very often see kindness as "what can I get out of you, if I am nice to you" and it takes a long long time before we realize someone is being sensere... I know it's hard to understand.. but it really sounds like that girl really just needs someone to stand by her NO MATTER WHAT... until she does she wont be able to fix her problem... thanks to my bf and my little sister, I can now say, my walls are starting to crumble and I'm finally free of that torture, and yes it IS TORTURE not being able to trust anyone.

Okay Mandy I will....

Thanks Mandy.. where are you, you had me worried too gurly!

Yesterday my bf's uncle in VA passed away, he'd had cancer for a while, but it still hurts... 3 hours after he passed on, his aunt in Cali suffered a massive stroke.... we're grieving for Uncle Jr. and well his aunt we're very worried about...

I'm suffering a great loss, because Jr. was one of the only people in Isiah's family that REALLY excepted me... and he was a good friend to me.

But however, I am worried about Isiah... he's taking all of this so badly... of course I am too, and that doesnt make it any easier.. I guess I just really need someone to talk to right now...

I think it's okay, so long as the freshman's parents approve of the relationship... remember,freshmans are young and still getting used to being a teenager, where you have been one longer and may be more mature (no offence to freshmans, was one myself once).... Being a Senior in my highschool I have seen alot of upsetting Freshman/11th grade relationships go down the drain in a real rough way.. but have seen some be successful... Good luck and remember, make sure it's okay with her parents too.

Okay it's complicated...

I Love my older sister, she's dear to me and I would do anything for her...including take her place in death if it came to that.

I'm IN LOVE with Isiah... I have a stronger emotional bond with him, than if I just LOVED him.. there's just something special there, I'm not infatuated with him, but I need to be with him, and when he's sad I know it and I'm sad too... I have a spiritual connection with him, but it's different that what some people consider it.. it's just really confusing to explain.

But then I have a spiritual connection with my younger sister, kinda like Boonpop does with friends wife... I know when she's sick and I dont even have to see her.. I know when something's happened to her, and dont have to talk to her or see her.. it's a bond that can't be broken...

I understand the "giving Him space"... I mean I have had alot of emotional things bother me while growing up and I know when I need space, I just want to be alone to my thoughts... but sometimes I dont even do anything and he just gets SO upset about things...

We're very advanced in our relationship.. and very close, we share alot of things... but sometimes I just dont understand him...he goes from caring an easy going to biting my head off in like 2.5 seconds... and he never gets a break from his ex.

His little one calls me "Mommy" and she rarely wants to go see her real mom, but has to do so every week. The mother is constantly coming up with new things to make our lives miserable, and I'm helpless when it comes to solving the problems she makes....

Sometimes I just want to go teach her a lesson, although legally I know that isnt possible... but I think it's amazing how she could be so blind as to not realize the blessings she had, and then to not be able to see that she's only ruining other peoples lives and making him hate her more, not to mention that she's losing her daughters trust, loyalty and respect...

I guess I'm venting, and just need someone to help me sort through this mess of emotions I'm having right now.

Thanks Boonpop.

Okay, this is complicated, and very hard for me to handle sometimes. But I am currently dating a very nice, is a very hard worker, and loves learning, is open minded and unfortunately has a difficult past.

He got married alittle over a year ago,and has a 2 yr old daughter, the woman he married cheated on him, and he finally couldnt take it after a while and filed for divorce... they're legally separated, and in the middle of a custody battle and settling the divorce, but the mother of the baby doesnt take care of her properly and is always accusing my boyfriend of things he didnt do...

He's always upset(understandable) but her garbage seems to be making him push away from our relationship some...

What should I do?

Mandy... I have recently gone through this with Isiah (without the break up) he pushed me away... want "TIME"....now you know some of the things that hinder him and I's relationship, since I've discussed much of it with you.. between baby Jasmine and her mother... etc... He got over whelmed with that... and with work and family problems... he didnt speak to me or message me for over 2 weeks... I would leave him a little online message every other day or so, just to say "I'm here for you when you need to talk" or "Hey if you need a friend, let me know" eventually he came around.... now thats not to say I didnt worry about him.. I kept tabs on him through friends, and I called his brothers to make sure he was okay (you know he lives about 2 hrs from me)....

When he did call me, I was just as neutral as I had been in my online messaging.. I was just there to listen... I didnt express my feelings until he asked me... then I did tell him... that the way he'd handled the situation had hurt, and had scared me, but that I understood that he needed time to think....

Dont push him Mandy... but let him know you are there if he ever needs you..

I'll keep you both in my prayers.... Hang tough girl, I know you can!

Love Ya.

SC