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I'm doing so much better now, but I still think about you all of the time. I think about you, about us, and about you and her together. I still can't wrap my head around the fact that you went back to that disgusting person that treated you so terribly. That's what you chose though and I have no choice but to accept it. I think the break from work and not having to see you was a big help to me. I dread going back and seeing you again, because I hurt when I see you. I can't speak to you, can't even look at you. You're just someone I used to know, a memory of the best time of my life.

Your "girl" must be insecure (and obviously immature) to be posting nonsense on social media. And you just sit back and allow it? I know that relationship will fail, again. She hasn't changed, and you'll see that. In one of her drunken rages all her jealousy will come back, and you'll end up right back where you were with her. I still can't believe you left me for that!! What is wrong with you? Are you really that damaged that you think that is the kind of person you deserve? Maybe you don't know what real love and happiness is supposed to be like because of the screwed up relationships you've had. I loved you unconditionally, treated you great, supported you, trusted you. You threw that all away. And yet I still want you back. What the hell is wrong with ME? Why am I waiting for you to realize what a mistake you made and come back home? I have to let you go, let us go. There is no more us, you ruined it. You broke my heart, betrayed me, used me, lied to me. I hate that I love you.

Day 14 Just saw this thread and figured I'd join in. It's been a little over a month since the breakup, and at first I was weak and couldn't stick to no contact. I'm proud of the progress I've made, and the healing I've done, though I still have a ways to go. My ex and I work in the same building so we do see each other almost daily, but don't even make eye contact at this point. That is a real painful part of this process because we spent practically every moment together for the past year (living and working together). Now it's like we're strangers. I found out that he went back to his abusive ex right after he broke up with me, so basically he left me for her. I wanted to confront him about this but have stayed strong. I still love him and miss him terribly, though I accept what is, and am trying my hardest to let go of what was. I decided to take a week off of work (not because of him), so I'm hoping not having to see him will be good for me, because seeing him is when the pain starts to come back full force. Everyday is a struggle, but it's one I must face in order to fully heal my broken heart.