Moon711
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Day 4 Well, everything was going great today. I had lunch with my family and I went to the movies with some friends. But when I was leaving the mall I saw his car, and now I'm panicking thinking he was on a date! We used to go to the movies all the time. I thought I was doing better, but just seeing his car made me so nervous, and thinking that I could have run into him while he was with someone else makes me sick. I want this to stop, I keep telling myself is over but there is still hope. How do I give up?
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Just woke up/ Day 4 Yesterday I didn't post here. I didn't leave the house. Saturdays have always been difficult for me since the BU happened. I think yesterday was one of the first Saturdays I didn't cry. I though about him all day but at the same time I felt like I was dettaching. It was a weird feeling. I also kept thinking that just 2 weeks ago I was watching him sleep next to me, wondering if that will ever happen again. I just woke up knowing I had a bad dream about him but I don't remember it. Today I'll do something out of the house. Good luck everyone!
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Day 2 Today I felt better. The day started kind of low, by noon I heard a song and cried a little. I was busy at work so this helped to stop staring at my phone. After work I met with some friends and I felt happy, almost did not think of him. In the group I hang out with today was a guy I dated briefly 6 years ago. He is married, has a great job and I still find him very attractive. I compared him to my ex (at 33 he does not know what to do with his life, does not want to settled down), so it make me think I can do wayyy better. I want someone who gives me stability, instead of making me doubt all the time. So yes, it was a good day.
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Back to day 1 I broke NC yesterday with the lamest excuse ever I feel like such an idiot, I really do. I'm thinking about deleting whatsapp from my phone, this is the way we usually talk. Right now I feel soo sad, and I go from wanting to let him go for good to wanting to go tell him I love him and miss him. I feel so anxious all the time, thinking if is going to text me or no, looking at my phone like crazy. I'm so tired of this.
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Thank you Trying for your words. I'm new here. My NC consists in no contact from me, and if he contacts me I will answer very briefly. It's been 8 days since I last spoke to him and said I didn't want to be FWB, he broke my heart once again. Yesterday he texted me saying he went to some place we used to go and that he missed me. I answer with a smiley and that was it. I can't stop thinking about him, if he misses me, if he is going to come around... I don't know if maybe he is with someone else and sometimes I feel I'm panicking. It's not easy to let go.
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Post here instead of contacting your ex!
Moon711 replied to Nynnja's topic in Healing After Break Up or Divorce
Today I felt that I still love you. Like i could see right through that shell and really see you, see your heart. Why have you been contacting me? Do you feel lonely? Bored? Guilty? I am trying very hard to accept that you are not longer part of my life. I would've love for you to open up with me, to trust me all your fears. It's not to late for me. Are you thinking about it? Do you ever regret the choice you made? Te quiero muchísimo y quiero lo mejor para ti, aunque no sea yo