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these lines from Sugarcult's "Pretty Girl" is totally hwat i'm going through now: That's what you get for falling again You can never get him out of your head It's the way he makes you feel It's the way he kisses you It's the way he makes you fall in love… - Sugarcult, Pretty Girl

OVer spring break i went to France with a group of mostly sophomores and juniors from my school. On the trip there's this guy i was relly attracted to. Normally i'me extremely shy in school and can never keep a coherent conversation but b/c i hardly knew any of the people on the trip, i was more outgoing and even flirted a bit. since we got our own room keys, one night a girl invited these guys to her room for cards and after the game we started Truth or Dare. B/c the guy was there i was really into it (the dares were along the lines of eating M&Ms off of other people). I dared this one girl to eat M&Ms off his arm and while she was doing that i held his hand and "read his palm." Later when this other guy asked him which of the girls he would most like to take out, he pointed to me and was very sweet - he seemed quite tired so he was lying down with his cheek on my leg. thinking back on it i'm thinking, "WHY did i not ask him out right there?" Earlier that day my friend said she liked him and she was having a hard time with this other crush so that's why i didn't do anything ~ also, i'm extremely insecure. Eventually the party broke up (at around 3 a.m.) i thought he really was going to spend the night with us girls and i was in the place right next to him but when i went back to my room to get more pillows, my friend moved right next to him (actually, she's also the shy sort so she just moved her head to right where i was supposed to sleep and was lying diagonally). i felt awkward about asking her to move so i declared i'll sleep on the ground, and he said he should leave then. the thing that really puzzled me was that during the day he was pretty casual around me but that night we did the game thing again and this time we ended up cuddling on the bed till about 4 a.m (but there was other people in the room). I can't figure this guy out. I asked around and everybody says that he's really quiet in class and he does have these mood swings. Sometimes if anybody talked to him he'll be really brusque and just not talk to anyone. Other times he's very nice and friendly and funny. Also, during the trip i was very much not acting my normal school self. And i'm very confused about what i feel about him and what i think he had felt about me. Sometimes during the trip i'll be so angry at him b/c he ignores me but then a couple hours later i'll forget to be mad and he's suddenly nice and outgoing. And i would be over him if it was just a ordinary crush where nothing happens but the cuddling was VERY comfortable. i mean, should i just go and ask him out or something, but then i wouldn't know what to do b/c there's always the risk of pubic humiliation.

Hi, am new here but in desperate need of some second and third opinions bout this situation. VERY LONG STORY - i just went with a group of kids from school to europe over spring break, and since we were able to share rooms with one or two roommates, after the evening activities the guys and girls can get together ~ we were very prudent and played Truth or Dare. There's this one guy in the group that's i was (and still am) very attracted to and the first night of dares (most of the dares were along the lines of a guy eating M&Ms off a girl's back or some sort of kissing) another one of the guys was being rather sad and asked if any of the girls would go out with him. Nobody said yes and we justified it by saying stuff like, u're just not our type ... blah blah. But then he asked if any of us would NOT want to go out with this other guy there (the one i thought was very cute) and not one of us said no. So he asked the cute guy which one of the girls he would most want to take out, and then he pointed to me. OF course i was delighted but my friend had confessed that she liked him and i haven't told anyone baout my own crush. ALSO, i'm VERY shy and was just so damnably not very confident so i really didn't do anything. He was being very sweet, lying his head on my leg and stuff (it was in a hotel room so i was under the covers in my PJs). During the day he's never very talkative but in the afternoon when we were waiting for the others (the original 24 kids had split uo into 4 or 5 groups to check out stuff) with about 5 other people, i used his armas a pillow, lying down not next to him, but in a T shape and gave him a backwards massage. Too bad during dinner he was going through one of his mood swings or something and was being very unresponsive. That night we did truth or dare again, and again he as next to me on the bed. and later when the group of kids moved to his room, which had a large single bed, we kind of cuddled there. I seriously don't know what to make of it. If it was just the two of us, i'll know it's relly something, but b/c there were other people in the room, it seems really weird. And b/c for the rest of the vacation (another 4 days) we never had another chance to do the Truth or Dare thing, he and i were never alone together but he was very nice and talking a LOT more on the coach. However, am now backin school and dojn't know what to make of the whole thing. On one hand he was awfully sweet and we were playing with each other's hands and feet, but then, it was with about 4 other people in the room and nothing like that ever happened again. btw, while we were on the bed, this other girl offered to teach me the french kiss ~ i decline while he was urging us on..ugh. So i'm thinking maybe what happened was that he was interested the first couple days but then he got over it? Sorry, am not a good story teller