And so No Contact has begun (again). I am probably not going to count the days. And I don't think that I can EVER go back. I know that some people talk about six months or a year and you can wave and smile, but as something more like an addiction, I am not sure that will ever be possible.
The turning point in all my addictions to this point has been when I have realised, acknowledged and accepted that going back - just one bite, will get me back on that loop, and back in the grips of addiction. It is an important point because it can help to steer my course away from that toxic loop.
It is only day one or day two, all I want to do is to let him back in. I want to reach out to him. And I know that I will be getting incredibly irritable for the next few weeks and I know that it is going to be tough, but at least it is finite. At least when I get through this and out the other side, I don't have to go through it again.
Here's to the risk of being happy.