I didn't post when I started NC but I guess I'm restarting today. I checked her snapchat last night saw she was with her new guy. She later deleted them, maybe for once she knew it's not something I want to see. at least she cares enough for that. not enough to keep her in my life, though.
still missing a friend, a support structure. studying is still difficult - I'm lacking that positive emotion, that energy, that motivation I had with her keeping me motivated.