First post to this thread...
5 days NC, 7 days since breakup.
Last time we communicated she was livid over something I had done. The day before, she was letting me go with much guilt and love and said it was a hard decision because she was giving up the best guy to come into her life, but now I think she hates me. The past week has been absolute hell. I feel guilty for making this much worse for both of us.
Anyway, posting here for a bit seems like a good idea. I'm anxiously waiting for her to return my things because I half expect her to want to talk about what happened. I'm afraid to hear what she may say. I know it will be nothing good. I guess the best possible outcome would be her saying she isn't mad- I don't know. If she doesn't reach out though, I know part of me will want to check on her and the result of that would probably set me back.