Silent Suicide

[darkling]

You won't hear me scream,

won't hear a sound.

I've been dead awhile,

can't be found.

 

I'm lost in the dark,

no candle light home.

Pain and Misery,

are the valleys I roam.

 

I hear the inferno,

the raging in my mind.

Walk towards the fire,

fearing what I find.

 

A river of rage,

runs through my heart.

The steam of hatred,

carves me apart.

 

Love once flowed here,

lighting the way.

It's gone for good,

no reason to stay.

 

I'm stuck in a prison

one without bars.

Each memory of love,

now just a scar.

 

In despiration I stand,

edging towards the stream.

The hate envelopes,

anger changing me.

 

I drink from this river,

the fire inside.

Screaming you can't hear,

a silent suicide.

[Ellie2006]

Hey Darkling,

 

This may sound a bit ... hoakey but here goes: a scream (even one that's stifled and/or one that's internalized) is never silent ...

 

And I do think it's rather uplifting that's there's a river running through your heart, though it may be one of rage right now.

 

After all, a river implies movement, does it not?

 

I hope the anger will subside and the river of your heart will flow with love again ...

 

Thanks for sharing and have a wonderful week!

[dil]

wow, I really like this.

[desertnomad]

Excellant poem, very real and deeply expressive