Missing my ex 5 Years Later

[Elih]

Hey guys. This is very strange. My ex and I broke up 5 years ago. We dated for 3 years... (I'm a lesbian and she was... straight?) yet... I miss her out of the blue? We were kids back then and now I am a fully grown adult, she has her marriage and kids and I have my life as well. I WOULD NEVER contact her! she hurt me so much! It was so bad I didn't shed a tear or talk to her/see her ever again after our very messy break up and I have never spoken about her to anyone because I moved away closed all social media and started a new life in a different city the second we broke up... so why am I suddenly thinking about her. I feel so stupid for feeling like this since she was monster to me. I would rather sleep in a cage with lions than be in the same room with her.

 

Is this normal for someone who has moved on to think about an ex? I have become almost obsessed wondering if she ever missed me after our break up since she obviously did not care about me and I did a disappearing act...

 

I've had people tell me I need closure with her, but I would much rather give myself that closure. I will never speak to her or see her or allow her to know about my whereabouts until the day I die. So what is going on with me? I though I was over this whole thing a loooong time ago... is it my curiosity to know if she missed me or do I actually miss her... I feel gross...

[tallblondegirl]

I too miss an ex for no reason..Like out of the blue slightly obsessional as well. It might have something to do with the trauma of the breakup between you two. Have you had a history of bad relationships or self esteem issues??