I wasted my life and I see no way out of it.

[ApocalypseDreams]

I don't see why starting a degree at 30 or 31 is such a big deal?

[mesmerized]

I don't see why starting a degree at 30 or 31 is such a big deal?

 

At this point I don't have enough money to cover the tuition fee at a good university in England or Canada... I'm also not sure if I should pursue a degree related to Education or start something completely different. I definitely don't have enough money to pay for another Bachelor's degree (at least 3 years) I'm a person who needs some stablity in life and I'm afraid that studying for 3 years is going to kill my chances to get any stability.

 

Right now I've got a bigger problem anyway. I'm facing the possibility of being without any job from July or August. If I don't find a job, I won't get a visa... ,which means I'll be forced to leave China. In that case I'll start saving whatever savings I have.

 

I will not go back to my country. I will not let myself be a failure like that. I'd rather stop to exist than be such a failure.

[mesmerized]

I can't edit the post so I have to add the correction here. I wanted to say:

 

In that case I'll start burning whatever savings I have.