RayF Posted December 1, 2004 Share Posted December 1, 2004 when she belongs there? Well four months broken up from a 2 year relationship. Said she felt anxiety becuase of us getting into fights so often. we would fight abut little issues, much of it was my insecurites would cause me to pick fights. I'm getting professional help and feel i've come along way at getting better. But still get insecure at times, however i'm convinced i learned so much that i wouldn't repeat past mistakes if i had the chance at lve with her or anyone else agian. I really can;t blame her for feeling anxiety, though had i known it was so bad i still would have looked at myself more... I know i unconsously brought her down because of my own insecurites... My ex really was perfect, good morals, honest, loyal, intelligent, sweet and thoughtfull and mature and she was as pretty as any model or actress i;ve seen. she loved me for me. I feel like i just have neer known anyone else with all of these attrbutes in her, she was abosutly perfect in my eyes... and now... theres no one else like her to be found... For fun i'll go on these dating things to see whats out there and i come accross attractive girls my age (20's) but all they want to do is party, get drunk and meet guys. this is not the type of girl i want, i want someone who is attractive but a little more timid, modest and mature (like my ex was). Moreover they're looking for a guy like them! and those types of guys are usually the college sports types of guys. (and then they complain that they want no players who treat them bad, go figure!) I will say looks do matter to me to a certian degree... they definatly do not have to be perfect by any means but damn, it will be hard to top my ex and thats what bugs me the most. I'm a good looking guy, but average height and build, not an athlete but have a fit and pretty trim body, but i don't like sports all too much, i guess i'm not too impulsive or advnterous, i'm into music, art, movies, dining out, travelling, excersising at the gym, deep conversation,... just like my ex was. Sometimes i feel like i just might be boring. The thing is it's easier for an attractive girl (like my ex was) to adapt this party lifestyle (all they hae to dois stand there and get hit on and just go with it but girls don't come up and hit on guys as much) but for me, i'm just not a party guy. decent looking or not I can be entertaining at parties but it never sastisfies me, what satisfies me is having a loyal and kind compannion to experience other things with. I don't know where to meet women, i don't like the bar and it's only littered with these types of girls, i'm friendly, outgoing and all that but i'm just not a party kinda guy. I enjoy spending time with close friends at a pub or resteraunt. more than meeting new drunk idiots at a nightclub. i just can';t relate to those types of people, i'm ahead in maturity i guess. I do get out and hang with friends allot, but that dosn't really allow for meeting new people too often... as we just hang out go toa pub or the movies. I go to a small college, not allot of new people there to meet and althugh i'm in design, most of the people are too artsy and out there at my school. sigh, rant rant rant... some days i feel like i have allot to offer, others i just think, yeah but to WHO? 17 years i never found anyone like my ex... do i have to wait another 17? Quote Link to comment
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