YabbaDabba Posted November 21, 2011 Share Posted November 21, 2011 I thought it would take longer than this; I really did. I work in the library field and, very recently, got a new job. A major impetus behind my looking for a new job was because of a co-worker that I didn't want to deal with anymore, but was also because, within my organization, at that point, there was no real upward mobility (unless, of course, I waited for someone to retire). Anyway. I got a new job, which was a significant pay increase, but going into it, I worried because it was an entirely different sector of my field, and one that's not really chock-full of variety. Now, six weeks later, I'm beginning to wonder about my choice, and I'm thinking I might've made a mistake. I feel bad even writing that because my new boss is friendly and really encouraging, but, at the same time, I can see, a year down the road, me ripping my hair out because I'm so utterly bored. And, I know that I could be more proactive in seeking out/asking my boss for more tasks, but there honestly aren't many things he could give me to do (I, at this point, because of compartmentalization, know more about my job than he does!), and, to be blunt, I'm not really all that passionate about this branch of my career field, OR this aspect of it. On top of that, I still have friends at my old job, and when we talk about the old job, I find it difficult to speak of it in past-tense terminology. I'm often having to correct myself from saying "we" to "you guys," since I'm no longer employed there. And, even with all of its flaws, I'm finding that I miss the activity and variety of my old job; I sort of miss the creativity and the dynamic aspect, which I've yet to find in this new job. And, I know it's early on, and I didn't really settle into my old position until about three months in, but I KNOW this new job isn't where I want to be. I mean, when I took the job, I knew it wasn't what I wanted to do long-term, and I planned to stay for a year or two, but now...I don't know. Even that seems like a long time. But, what has me most confused, is that my old organization now has three professional positions open; these are jobs that, if I'd know for certain they were going to offer, I probably wouldn't have left; see, as I said, my main reason for leaving was the utter lack of advancement (paired with the irksome co-worker), but these positions are exactly what could've kept me around/given me hope for advancement. So now, I'm considering apply for one of these jobs, but I'm also torn because I feel like it'll look like the height of indecisiveness, considering that I left in early Oct. and now, in late Nov., am trying to come back (albeit, in a completely different job capacity). When I was leaving the old job, though, I happened to encounter one of my boss's former supervisor's, who started quizzing me about the new job; as I was answering her, the organization's deputy director appeared and, said, "Well, that's fine for now [referring to my new job]. But we know where your heart is; and you'll be back." At the time, I was SO weirded out by that comment, but it's also so true. I mean, I figure that if she made that comment, it won't/wouldn't be all that weird if I re-apply an interview for one of these new jobs (which, incidentally, are a significan pay increase above my new pay). I don't know. I guess, at the end of the day, I'm kind of embarassed to apply for a new position after only six weeks away; if this were a year down the road, I wouldn't hesitate, but a few weeks just seems like I don't know what I'm doing with myself. So, after all of this rambling, my question really is this: should I stick with the current job and hope it gets better? (Despite that fact that even if I create tasks for myself, I know that I'll NEVER be passionate about this branch of the library field?). Or just swallow my pride and apply for a job with my erstwhile employer and see what happens? (I mean, at the end of the day, all of this worrying could be pointless, considering I might not even get an interview/get hired for one of the new jobs). Link to comment
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