Willowbee Posted November 7, 2011 Share Posted November 7, 2011 I have been with my boyfriend for quite sometime now, and everything has been AMAZING up to this point. Him and I are in a long distance relationship, which in itself can be so emotionally draining, but after his last visit everything we had just stopped. There was no more text messages or phone calls, and the ones I sent to him seemed to be ignored. When he did finally respond, they seemed cold, and emotionless. Being human, I immediately started to pick myself apart, and try and figure out what I had done wrong. Since he would not let me in to what was going on, I was ready to give up. After well over a week of reaching out to him, and getting nothing in return from him, I sent him a final text message giving him the opportunity to explain himself, as well as let him know that I was still willing to work through this with him if only he would just let me. If I did not hear back from him I had every intention of deleting his phone number, and erasing him from my mind. The entire day went by, and finally 7 pages worth of text messages came in from him...He explained what a deep depression he was in, as well as how much he missed me. This is something he has been dealing with his entire life, and it comes and goes with no explanation at all. He told me that it was nothing that I had done, but he was in a "shell" and just could not come out of it. He claims he wants to work through this and fix it, but he has no idea what to say to make this better.... I have not heard from him since then. After reading through those text messages, my heart just ached for him, as I myself have been there. It is a horrible feeling, and if you have never experienced it then you really have no idea. Who am I to judge someone on how they deal with pain, but I wish there was something I could do, or if he would just reach out to me I could help in some way. As much as I am respecting him, and what he is going through, I never could have imagined how much his absence would effect me. I feel as though his depression is literally making me die inside, and I am feeling miserable. I do not want to give up on him, nor do I plan to, but how do I deal with this? What can I do so he knows that I have not forgotten about him, and that I AM still here? What can I do for myself in this situation? Any advice would be much appreciated!! Link to comment
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