It's not getting any easier

[stevo1565]

Hey Guys

 

Been a little over a month since i've been on here. My Story is i met this amazing girl i work with we went out but only for around 4 months previously i would take the time to go and speak with her whenever i was in her place of work. We split up (her choice she decided she was not happy) about 3 months ago. I went over to the US for 6 weeks to try and pursue a dream of learning how to fly I had to come back home without my licence though i just could not focus. While i was in the US i had a great time even met a nice girl but its easier for us to be friends right now.

 

Not one day goes by where i dont think about my ex this has never happened before I had to breifly see her on monday but we did not speak or anything at this point i would find that hard. I just dont know what to do since i got back from the US im contantly on Edge feel anxious and have to keep myself busy to stop thinking about her I hate my job i live back home as i cant afford to move out.

 

I wish her all the happiness in the world i really do but feeling like this is driving me crazy. I've decided on a fresh start and a move to the US im quitting my job next week and starting to get the wheels in motion.

 

I have to go in one more time to her place of work to hand it over to a colleague to look after as its too hard ive even thought about writting a letter to her and leaving it on her car (she teach's so i cant speak directly to her) I just dont know what to do. I really needed to vent this as its eating me up inside

[banal]

Do you have the means to move to the US? A job lined up?

 

In regard to the breakup, it'll get better. It sounds like you're frustrated with your life, as a whole - once you begin to straighten that out, you'll stop feeling so miserable in general, and from there you'll stop feeling so miserable about this dead relationship.

[stevo1565]

Hey Thanks for your reply

 

I've had US Citzenship for years just never taken the plunge and done anything with it now it just feels so right. As regards to a job im currently looking into things over there with one or two positive replies i also have freinds that i can live with while i get on my feet.

 

I think your right Im really frustrated with life at the min I feel a fresh start and a new life would be worth it as right now what have i got to loose