easiest way...

[under_the_pressure]

I want to know the easiest way to end my life. Is it gun, knife, o.d....um...just give me some ideas. Don't tell me why I should stay because I shouldn't. Everyone would be happier if I was gone.

 

under*

[Duderanomi]

No one's going to tell you the best way to commit the biggest mistake possible. No matter what you think, there's always hope. Seek help if you need it, but don't go ahead with this.

[RayKay]

Coming from someone who suffered a pretty severe doubt of depression (combined with anorexia) when I was in my teens, I can tell you IT DOES GET BETTER. I promise you it does - I love life, I am positive, and while there are still tough times (I can't promise you there never will be) I can now go through them with a positive frame of mind. I had friends who did not believe that and killed themselves when they were 16, 17 - the other day I was thinking of all that they missed out on life. That they never had chance to seize so many opportunities. I also had friends (including a boyfriend of 5 years) die without choice - they WISH they could of lived. As do I.

 

Suicide does not just hurt yourself, it hurts everyone.

[american dream]

Easiest way huh...

 

There is no easy way, because in the end YOU still have to do it. I don't know you or your story, but I noticed a few things just from seeing your post.

 

#1. You are 14. Life will get better, then worse, then better again. This thing is a roller coaster. Read some of my posts if you have a minute. I am in the breaking up forum. I was suicidal after a horrible breakup...

 

which brings me to my next point

 

#2. I see in your tag you put "Alan, I love you". Seriously, if this is about a guy it is sooooo not worth it. Believe me, I was going crazy when my ex left me. CRAZY. But I got through and so will you.

 

I know this wasn't what you wanted to hear, but I hope it helps somewhat. I am at work right now and bored as hell, so if you want to chat, PM me and we can talk about whatever.

[ComputerGuy]

Hey under, no need to feel that way, you think everyone would be happier if you were gone? I for one don't know what I would do if I lost you. I love you with all my heart and if even one person loves you isn't that worth sticking around for???

 

I hope to be able to catch you on MSN, Love You

[i_hate_the_world47]

under,

thought i havent known you that long,your a great person.You have alot of potential and you dont wanna see that go to waste.I know life probably sux right now but it will get better.Please stick around for that happy time to come.I am sure it will come sooner than expected.

 

~Meagan~

[thisisnotanexit]

If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional - only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain.

 

I don't know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you're reading it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here because you are troubled and considering ending your life. If it were possible, I would prefer to be there with you at this moment, to sit with you and talk, face to face and heart to heart. But since that is not possible, we will have to make do with this.

 

I have known a lot of people who have wanted to kill themselves, so I have some small idea of what you might be feeling. I know that you might not be up to reading a long book, so I am going to keep this short. While we are together here for the next five minutes, I have five simple, practical things I would like to share with you. I won't argue with you about whether you should kill yourself. But I assume that if you are thinking about it, you feel pretty bad.

 

Well, you're still reading, and that's very good. I'd like to ask you to stay with me for the rest of this page. I hope it means that you're at least a tiny bit unsure, somewhere deep inside, about whether or not you really will end your life. Often people feel that, even in the deepest darkness of despair. Being unsure about dying is okay and normal. The fact that you are still alive at this minute means you are still a little bit unsure. It means that even while you want to die, at the same time some part of you still wants to live. So let's hang on to that, and keep going for a few more minutes.

 

 

 

Start by considering this statement:

 

"Suicide is not chosen; it happens

when pain exceeds

resources for coping with pain."

 

That's all it's about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn't even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.

 

 

Don't accept it if someone tells you, "that's not enough to be suicidal about." There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.

 

When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. It is simply an imbalance of pain versus coping resources.

 

You can survive suicidal feelings if you do either of two things: (1) find a way to reduce your pain, or (2) find a way to increase your coping resources. Both are possible.

 

Now I want to tell you five things to think about.

 

 

1 You need to hear that people do get through this -- even people who feel as badly as you are feeling now. Statistically, there is a very good chance that you are going to live. I hope that this information gives you some sense of hope.

 

2 Give yourself some distance. Say to yourself, "I will wait 24 hours before I do anything." Or a week. Remember that feelings and actions are two different things - just because you feel like killing yourself, doesn't mean that you have to actually do it right this minute. Put some distance between your suicidal feelings and suicidal action. Even if it's just 24 hours. You have already done it for 5 minutes, just by reading this page. You can do it for another 5 minutes by continuing to read this page. Keep going, and realize that while you still feel suicidal, you are not, at this moment, acting on it. That is very encouraging to me, and I hope it is to you.

 

3 People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead.

 

4 Some people will react badly to your suicidal feelings, either because they are frightened, or angry; they may actually increase your pain instead of helping you, despite their intentions, by saying or doing thoughtless things. You have to understand that their bad reactions are about their fears, not about you.

 

But there are people out there who can be with you in this horrible time, and will not judge you, or argue with you, or send you to a hospital, or try to talk you out of how badly you feel. They will simply care for you. Find one of them. Now. Use your 24 hours, or your week, and tell someone what's going on with you. It is okay to ask for help. Try:

 

Send an anonymous e-mail to The Samaritans

Call 1-800-SUICIDE in the U.S.

Teenagers, call Covenant House NineLine, 1-800-999-9999

Look in the front of your phone book for a crisis line

Call a psychotherapist

Carefully choose a friend or a minister or rabbi, someone who is likely to listen

But don't give yourself the additional burden of trying to deal with this alone. Just talking about how you got to where you are, releases an awful lot of the pressure, and it might be just the additional coping resource you need to regain your balance.

 

5 Suicidal feelings are, in and of themselves, traumatic. After they subside, you need to continue caring for yourself. Therapy is a really good idea. So are the various self-help groups available both in your community and on the Internet.

 

 

Well, it's been a few minutes and you're still with me. I'm really glad.

 

Since you have made it this far, you deserve a reward. I think you should reward yourself by giving yourself a gift. The gift you will give yourself is a coping resource. Remember, back up near the top of the page, I said that the idea is to make sure you have more coping resources than you have pain. So let's give you another coping resource, or two, or ten...! until they outnumber your sources of pain.

 

 

Now, while this page may have given you some small relief, the best coping resource we can give you is another human being to talk with. If you find someone who wants to listen, and tell them how you are feeling and how you got to this point, you will have increased your coping resources by one. Hopefully the first person you choose won't be the last. There are a lot of people out there who really want to hear from you. It's time to start looking around for one of them.

 

Now: I'd like you to call someone.

 

And while you're at it, you can still stay with me for a bit. Check out these sources of online help.

 

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[under_the_pressure]

i feel dumb for posting again, i feel like a whuss. because i should have did it. but just to let everyone know, i'm still here. i wrote my mom a note, but nothing ever changes. i'm going to at least hold off until wednesday when i go see my 'shrink' maybe that'll help. oh, and it's not over a guy, the allan guy. he is the one who can still make me smile. i really do want to end it all...but 1. i'm a whuss and 2. maybe i do have something to live for. i feel so ignorant.

 

under*

[ComputerGuy]

Hey, you're not a whuss for not ending it, it takes more courage to stay here and work through it than it does to end it. Remember, I am always here for you, and I really want to keep you around for a while

 

Stick with it, it will get better, I promise

Love Always

[thisisnotanexit]

you're a much braver person than i am

you've definitely made the right decision. things will get better, just try and be strong. take care

[i_hate_the_world47]

I am so happy you reconsidered.I hope you will be here forever.And you do have a reason to live.Even if you havent found it yet you will.

 

~Meagan~

[leah_mac]

if allan is the only person that can make u smile then why would u punish him by ending your life.. im seeing a 'shrink' now too and it sucks because i have to have complete trust in sumone i have only met for the first time.. and at first i felt worse.. but i feel better now.. and one thing i found that really helps is writing everything down.. every feeling u had that whole day and why.. it will take strength to write it and youll probally cry (depending on whats type of day u had) but ull feel alot off ur chest afterwards.. i have tried to kill myslef 6 times before.. but i either got scared and stopped in the middle if it or didnt cut deep in enough er only passed out and woke up like 8 hours later.. but i felt that is was the right thing.. and i new no one would care.. but my friends saw my cuts they talked to my parents and now im getting help and going on anti-depresants.. i felt stupid because i couldnt get threw deprssion by myslef or even end my own life..then what could i accomplish??.. im already accomplishing alot.. im living no matter how hard it got i lived.. i see no point in it.. but im doin it for other ppl.. sucide is the most selfish thing u can do.. leaving this pain filled world.. and leaving others with the pain of this life while ur death..im glad your thinking on the bright side.. on how seeing a shrink could make it better.. but remember the first few times u go u dont think its helping.. after a few meetings it does help..