I want to be physically hurt.

[EmptySoul]

Hello. For a while now, I've been wanting to be hurt physically. I self-injure and you think destruction to my body on my part would be enough, but I don't know... I've even had a dream about it a while back and I'm thinking about it more and more. I don't want it to come from a family member, but I want it to be a male. I don't understand why I want this and I can't recall hearing anyone else talk about something like this. Does anyone have any ideas? Have you heard of something like this before?

 

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[Dezeard]

This is serious. I think you should seek some pro help right away! This could lead to things like murder or even worse. Stuff like this isn't a good place to bring here, you need to talk to someone.

[ang3l2004]

Were you abused growing up?Father brother any type of male whatsoever?pm me anytime

[i_hate_the_world47]

Emptysoul,

I know how you feel.After induring years of abuse from my step father,i becme accistomed to abuse.But i know its not right.I thyink you should speak to your parents about this.If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.

 

~Meagan~

[EmptySoul]

I've started seeing a counselor recently, so hopefully I will be able to get her advice on this soon. The strange thing is, I have never really been abused. (i know many who self-injure have been.) my father has anger problems and sometimes yells or breaks things but never touches me...

 

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[i_hate_the_world47]

emptysoul,

Has anyone that you know ever been abused.Maybe a friend or something.That may also be a factor.Seeing this counselor may help.Good luck.

 

~Meagan~

[EmptySoul]

No one I know has been abused, with the exception of other self-injurers I talk to online.

 

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[i_hate_the_world47]

well then maye this is just a phase.With alittle help like counseling and therapy i am sure this will pass. jst hope you dont get hit befre you realize.I hope everything works out for the best.

 

~Meagan~

[HP-love craft]

its got to be a phase because i know exactly what you mean, i have only suffered abuse once but i was never actully hurt, just pushed up against a wall, well theres more to that but its your topic not mine, anyway i always want to be hanging from chains or something or get into a fight, its weird. sometimes i think of being punched. when im asleep i have dreams of shooting myself and as soon as i pull the trigger i wake up.

 

well i dont know...its a weird feeling.

[mtastic]

You should definitely bring it up with your councilor, I'm sure he/she will be able to hlep you, or at least point you to some one who can. If you need want to talk about it, you know you can always talk here as well. And pleas don't act on these feelings, I think the last thing any of us want to see happen is for you to get hurt.

 

Best of luck to you,

mtastic

[Nyere]

Yeah, I've felt the same. I've never been abused, ever. The closest thing to abuse I've experienced is my father hitting my sister and breaking stuff. I'm not certain, but I think (for me, anyway) it has to do with my cutting and depression. I think about being beaten up and bullied constantly ... I think it's something like .. I wish I had been abused, or was being abused, so I could justify my cutting and depression.

[EmptySoul]

Well, I guess I found what I was looking for. I can't say it's really helping me any, but at least I have the bruises to look at.

 

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