SeaDunkel Posted October 17, 2010 Share Posted October 17, 2010 As you led me into this place You promised that You wouldn't leave my side And said that You love me no matter what happens I didn't expect that the darkness would be so blinding The silence so deafening The pain so numbing The fear so crippling The journey so wearisome I didn't realize that this odyssey would lead to the depths of my soul To forgotten wounds that scarred my heart Agonizing memories that scream to be remembered Undefeated terrors that continue haunt me Rejections that sting despite brushing them aside Buried doubts that resurfaced without my consent My deepest longings demanded to be acknowledged And all of it surrendered to You I didn't envision that the gloom would still linger With the moments of relief being so fleeting Homesickness escalated into a constant battle But with no assurance of the comfort I seek Contentedness became an estranged friend Who rarely stops in to visit these days And hope would seem like a cruel joke Meant to taunt more than encourage But You have faithfully stood by my side Although the touch of Your hand is faint Your voice is sometimes so weak And Your purposes remain hidden from me You promised that Your love would conquer all And I cling to that As the grief rushes in and I sense the dull aching Even now I unashamedly cling to that Link to comment
eloise Posted October 17, 2010 Share Posted October 17, 2010 This is a very sad poem. If you are really suffering this way, I can relate. But I also hope that if you are trying to get over someone, you cannot forget that the things we say and tell ourselves paint our feelings. Have you written about hope and 'painted' more cheerful outlooks for yourself with your words? I can certainly sense your pain in your words. I can't help seeing a real person in pain about a real situation. Grief Sucks. Link to comment
SeaDunkel Posted October 17, 2010 Author Share Posted October 17, 2010 Yeah, it's definitely based on exactly what I'm feeling right now. I have more good days than bad, but today was just a particularly bad one. I've been trying to snap out of it, but I can't seem to shake off the bad feelings today. I've been trying to get over a break-up for a very long time, and on top of that someone I admired very much killed himself this week (his wife had left him) so I'm also trying to deal with that. I'd love to write something more hopeful, but I don't think I'm capable of that today. Link to comment
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