I can't shake this.

[speak]

I really can't get out from under. I am so lost.

 

Growing up, I never really got a fair shot at love. At age 4 I was sexually abused by a family member my mother let stay with us. At age 12 My mother passed away. My Dad remarried before my Moms death to this lady that had a strong dislike for me and put a wedge between my relationship with My Dad and now, My Father Passed away two months ago, before my 21st Birthday. I AM NOT feeling sorry for myself, but I get so jealous when I see people my age with a loving and caring Father or Mother. I live with my sister and she cares, but it's like I NEVER got to have a full mother-daughter relationship and nor did I have one with my Dad. I AM NEVER GOING TO BE LOVED. That's how I feel. And the people that I love have more important people that they love. I have no shot at being cared for. I am lost.

[j56]

HUGS...

i kinda know exactly how you feel- my parents split up when i was way young, my dad is absent, my mum is emotionally wrapped up in her own woes.

 

I survived though.Think the fear that you will never be cared for is never quite gone but welll, we still have to go on....

[Silly Billy]

These things, believe it are not, will shape the very qualities that you will be loved deeply for. Not for the things that happened but for the unique person you are.

 

Keep the faith!