CrazyKing Posted May 13, 2010 Share Posted May 13, 2010 So, now I've been 5 months on probation already, for doing something really stupid while being drunk, following my exhibition that did not take place, loosing my job, etc. At least that was the final "blast" I needed to quit drinking. The biggest problem now is that I cannot get a job to move out my mothers house, I terribly want my own appartment. My confidence just stops working anytime I'm close to some girl because I know that my mother is the kind of person who would not accept anything if it does not work the way she wants it. I know that anytime I tell her that I'm meeting some girl I hear: "probably she's just a drinking b***h" or "I guess you're too coward to tell that you're a criminal" and that sort of s**t all the time. The joke is that I'd never date a b***h or lie about the things I've done, and still I know that the girls I meet are not the ones she'd like to see (even a tattoo would make her think that the girl's retarded) and I know that she's gonna scare her away if I ever invite someone, therefore I NEED my own appartment and MY OWN LIFE. BUT - My knowledge and experience does not fit the things needed on the market right now, so I go to the unemployment agency and apply for some courses, but I've been waiting for months and they just don't start because the lists are too damn long (my country rocks). Basically I don't know anything I could do right now. I even twice sold some scrap metal left by my father after their divorce to get at least some money. Though I'm painting and putting FX and synths on a bands songs, I won't get any money from that, It's just what I like doing that keeps me away from going completely nuts due to being in poverty. I just want to know what are the steps that I could take in such a situation where even education in order to get a job is something that could take up to a year to start. Link to comment
This topic is now archived and is closed to further replies.