veralyn Posted May 9, 2010 Share Posted May 9, 2010 He's been more or less avoiding me all year. But then randomly emails me random things. Why???? Reaches out to me in his weird, confused ways. I responded eagerly and openly for a while, hoping to reconcile. But his behaviour didn't change. I've now stopped responding, because though I miss him and know he still sometimes thinks of me and wish in my heart that everything would magically work out again, I have become too hurt and proud to respond. kills me to not answer him, but i refuse to be his puppet and get hurt all over again. Too much has happened, it's hard for me to look past it at this point; it would take an awful lot of mending.. it would be so worth it.. but i just don't know how to get there at this point or if it's even possible.. and i have no idea what his random reaches out to me mean.. Every time I've tried to have a conversation that confronts the issue, he just dodges it. There's this incredibile tension, if we are ever going to be okay again we need to talk it through, but i don't see that conversation happening anywhere in the near future. And I don't think forcing it out of him would do much. Is he reaching out just to check in, for an ego boost? Or is he truly hinting that he wants to fix the damage but is just too cowardly to outwardly say that? Should I keep up the NC??? Link to comment
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