Do You Even Care?

[still hurting]

There is so much pain

And so many tears

As I recall the horrible memories

Of my teenage years

 

I was only 15

You stole all that I had

My innocence, my virginity

Do you even feel bad?

 

I thought it was my fault

You called it an affair

You knew you were hurting me

Do you even care?

 

All the memories

They hurt so much

The nights I had to endure

Your perverted and unnatural touch

 

I put on a smile

To mask all the pain

Through all of my suffering

What did you gain?

 

I feel all alone

In this world of sin

But I'll never tell

So I guess you win

[KellyWyndham]

this is really amazing.

[AnotherBrokenDoll]

Thats really beautiful... I'm sorry you had to endure that.

[indigo_scar]

A really well written poem, but thats awful what happened. Your last bit- 'but i'll never tell', you know it's NEVER too late to tell. You deserve justice. They don't have to win. Perhaps you feel it was too long ago, or don't feel like anyone would believe you. But they would. The person that did this to you doesn't deserve to get away with it. I hope you are okay. x

[still hurting]

Thank you. This was my first poem and I was starting to get nervous because no one was commenting! I took a literature class in school a few years ago, but was never very good at the poetry part of it.

 

I recently got a journal to start writing down my feelings about my abuse and it just flowed onto the paper so easily. It feels good to finally find away to articulate everything going on in my head. I have written a few more, but they are pretty graphic so I'll just keep those to the journal.

 

Thanks again guys/gals!